1 WIBTA if I asked my ex best friend to be my plus 1 to my ex's wedding? posted in r/AITAH by TealLightning ten hours ago My ex (m34) is getting married this weekend and my date just bailed. I (28f) really don't want to go alone. I want to ask my ex best friend (m26) to be my plus 1. But this ex best friend stopped speaking to me a while back. My older sister says it's because he's in love with me and I've been leading him on for years and he's just trying to get over me. But there's no way. My sister just got engaged and now she looks at everything with hearts in her eyes. I miss him so much though. I feel like if he came to the wedding with me, it's a win/win. I'm not alone and we can catch up and it would be just like old times. My younger sister says I would be the asshole if I did, because he would never be able to say no to me and I need to let his broken heart heal. But he's dated a ton of women who are not me since I last talked with him; clearly he's over his crush, if it was ever there to begin with. Which it wasn't. Would I be the asshole if I asked him to the wedding? thepoopsmith-YTA itsholabitch3s-ur the asshole. just leave him alone. god. if he wanted to be friends with u he would be speaking to you rn. shenanigans007-NTA. Nothing wrong with asking. What's the worst that could happen? Seriously? A girl can't ask a guy to a wedding anymore is that what this is. This world is seriously f**ked up yall I can't even right now with this raspberrylimeseltzerwater-wait you think it's a win/win because YOU wouldn't be alone and it would be "just like old times" when clearly something went down that must've hurt him and changed everything? you're the assholeeeeeee iap384771oo1-hey that's a good point. what actually happened last time you spoke to this dude, OP? TealLightning-Nothing. I was at the bar he was working at and that's when I met my ex actually. That was the night my ex and I first hooked up. raspberrylimeseltzerwater-something's missing from this story. why does your sister think he has a broken heart? what did u do to hurt him? TealLightning-Jfc, I didn't do shit to him. So what if we kissed for the first time earlier that week? He knew it meant nothing, I knew it meant nothing. It meant nothing. Doesn't mean he gets to throw away sixteen years of friendship over it. iap384771oo1-seriously you want him to go to the wedding of the guy you chose after kissing him for the first time? after he's loved you for years??! you're the asshole raspberrylimeseltzerwater-that's what i thought. we're always missing some part of the story. YTA, OP, sorry not sorry shenanigans007-yeahhh. yta. you're the f**king asshole bitch I can't even explain how much rn, god this world is so freaking messed up, a guy can't even try to avoid a girl he loves anymore, I just?? you know? TealLightning-whatever. I'm gonna ask him just to spite y'all. And after that I'm deleting this dumb post. I've been sitting in my car at the parking lot of Cranberry Rose Company for almost twenty minutes. My ex, Nate Bowen, owns the place. But I'm not here to see him. My sister Sage and her man, Tenn, work here, too. Not here for them, either. I suck in a breath when a tall, dark-haired Cuban American fellow steps out of the barn, pushing a wheelbarrow full of . . . I'm not sure what. Wood chips? "Finally," I mutter, and get out of the car. I push my nerves all the way down as I approach him, until my legs feel steady enough to walk without tripping all over myself. All morning, my heart has felt like it's grown iridescent, indigo-bunting wings and is vibrating against my rib cage. I couldn't even eat breakfast. Since when have I ever been nervous to talk to Carter? Since he melted your boy shorts off with a single kiss last summer, my brain responds. I close my eyes, and when I open them again, Carter's looking right at me, a line between his furrowed brows. "Teal? What are you doing here?" I try not to notice the dark clouds in the distance. If I do, they'll get here even faster. "I'm-" I cough. "Um." I stop when I'm six feet away. I'm close enough to notice the way he looks at me like I'm some kind of a stranger to him now. Like we didn't spend our childhood collecting coins for the ice cream truck, eating our Choco Tacos and strawberry shortcakes in the big alder tree behind his mama's old house. Like I didn't call him every time Johnny made me feel like shit, knowing that just Carter's voice would make me feel better about my life, about the fuckup I'd become. I'm not close enough to him for dangerous things. Like to smell his cologne-Polo Green by Ralph Lauren, with its notes of citrus and leather. I'm not close enough to make out the sugar-sweet pink of his full lips. I'm not close enough to remember how they felt around my nipple through my bra-warm and wet and everything. He frowns at me even more deeply. "Sage and Tenn aren't here today. They're working in the field." "Carter," I say, and my voice breaks and I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. Thunder rumbles way too close. I'm running out of time. I always feel like I'm running out of time when it comes to Carter these days. This time, his eyebrows rise in worry. "Teal, what's wrong? Is it Nadia? Is it-" "No. Nothing like that." I shake my head firmly and inhale. One-two-three-four in, and out to the count of eight. Just say it, I will myself. And I do, in one whole breath, so fast even I can barely understand myself. "Do you wanna go with me to Nate's wedding on Saturday?" I'm not the asshole, I swear I'm not the asshole. Carter and I might've kissed-once-but if it meant something to me? I wouldn't have gone off with Nate just two days later. And if it meant something to him? He wouldn't have slept with every woman under the age of forty-five in Cranberry in the last year. I just want my childhood best friend back. That's it. But with the way Carter's jaw tightens, and his eyes narrow-it looks like that's not going to happen anytime soon, if ever. "Weren't you going with Andre Castle?" "No." Yes. I was, till Andre got sick of my bullshit and dumped me just yesterday. "Anyway, I just thought we could, you know, go, as friends. And-" "I already have a date, Teal." Carter's voice is as sharp as the art I saw at the gallery downtown a couple of weeks back, full of glass blown in veins of edges and blades. "And now I have to work." He dismisses me by angling the wheelbarrow away and marching down the hill toward the garden beds. For eight years straight, my sister Sage didn't cry, because when she did, my other sister, Sky, who we thought was dead, would appear to her as a ghost. Now that Sky is back, alive and well (as well as she could be, considering), Sage is making up for it. It seems like all she does is cry these days. She and Tenn move in together? Weeping-willow-turned-human. She and Tenn get engaged? La Llorona, showing off her artisan-carved engagement ring, with green-gold mushrooms swirling around one giant ivy-hued sapphire. Sage and I used to have that in common, because I try really hard to not cry, in general. But it's not because the tears call a ghost my way. It's because- A heavy splatter of cold hits my head. Another hits my shoulder. "Dammit," I mutter, glaring up at the sky, where the endless gray clouds have finally caught up with me. I wipe at my eyes violently, willing the salty wet to stay in, for the sake of old gods. I run to my car, followed by a sheet of sleet. It's the end of March and we're supposed to be in the middle of a warm spring. This is why I don't like to cry. I lean my head against the driver's door and do the breath work the therapist taught me, the one who I saw exactly twice after I watched my baby sister fall eighty feet, screaming and screaming and screaming. In, one-two-three-four. Out to the count of eight. I thought Mama had taken my gift with her when she pinched that spot of lightning from my palm, but it showed up again, years later, about six months before my first period. But something was off with it. Even Nadia, who's seen some shit, didn't know what was all wrong with me. In all of our known lineage-and I'm talking back and back to Texas, before Texas was even Texas-I am the first Flores woman who can't control my gift. Sage basically winks at plants and they bloom. Into irises the color of strawberry frozen yogurt, into roses as blue as a cloudless summer sky set over the sea. Sky, her gift is criaturas-animals. She can coax a family of black bears into her lap for a nap. She spends her weekends braiding mountain daisies into her hair, and when she takes a walk, fucking pumpkin-winged house sparrows follow her all over the place, like a flaca, brown Snow White. If things went right with the development of my gift, I'd be more like my sisters. I'd be able to snap my fingers for a light, warm rain. I'd be able to stop the snow of a blizzard, all with my thoughts and my will. But what happens, instead, is this: sleet when I cry, rain when I'm depressed, gray storm clouds as dark as night when I'm nervous, endless flashes of lightning when I'm angry, and all kinds of variations between. I thought, for the longest time, that if I pushed down the turbulent emotions, I'd be cured, but that hasn't worked out, either. If I feel nothing-like I did when I was still with Johnny-the sky becomes this flat, overcast gray that's about as cheery as a pile of cinder blocks. I was happy for about two seconds when Sky came back, before I started worrying about her again. The actual sky burst into rows and rows of rainbows, glimmering into each other like a psychedelic mirage, like somehow a giant, faceted diamond had inexplicably grown around Cranberry. It's the kind of weather event that would've made the news, but only one person got a photo before it disappeared, and as far as I know, they've just been accused of bad Photoshop skills. There's only one way that I can stop sadness and disappointment and grief, at least for a little while, and I don't even hesitate right now, as I try to push Carter's rejection to the furthest, swampiest part of my brain. I pop in my AirPods, click on my phone's playlist, and turn around and run as fast as I can, toward the dirt road leading away from Cranberry Rose Company. I run down the hill, where it turns into a paved road, and pass bluish-green fields of tobacco and barley. Every once in a while, a home whizzes by-little distant red farmhouses with white trim and picket fences covered in the hollowed vines of last year's morning glories, which will soon climb up again, dotting the perimeter of the land with blue, violet, and pink-trumpet flowers. The horizon is a curved line of soft hills, the ones Sage has called "mountains" since she was a little kid. Soon I reach the woods and I veer right at the first trailhead I see. I hop around startled tourists, maps in their hands, jumping over fallen trees and baby boulders. The entire world becomes green, with the first flush of spring leaves surrounding me in electric lime. The wind feels cold against my sweaty skin. I can hardly breathe, but I don't slow, I don't trip, I don't stop. Not until I reach a babbling brook at the end of the trail. With the rain we've been getting, it's too wide for me to rush through right now. But that's fine, because mission accomplished: I have run so fast and so long that all I can feel is the burn of my lungs and thighs, the pain in my right knee from an old injury. There is no disappointment. No anger. Just physical pain, and the oncoming runner's high that should get me through the rest of this morning. I nudge the voice of Taylor Swift out of my ears and shove the pods in my pockets. Now there's the sound of gurgling water and birdsong. I put my hands on my thighs and bend over, breathing the sweet, moss-smelling air as deeply as I can. "Teal!" I straighten and turn around, placing my hand on my chest. My next inhale stutters when I place who the hell is calling me, on a random run, this deep in the woods. Carter stops six feet away, just like I had done earlier, at the farm. It's like we've both agreed to adhere to an invisible force field. Like maybe he's as wary as I am about the feelings, the memories, that pop up uninvited when we're too close. His breath is faster than mine, and he bends and coughs. "Jesus Christ," he sputters. He's practically wheezing. "When did you learn to run like that, huh?" I frown. "You know I've been running." He coughs, choking on air. When he clears his throat, he says, "I was calling your name. For like, the last two miles." I huff. "I had my AirPods in." My breath is back to normal. It's the other parts of me-my skin, my belly, my heart, that feel off. Like all my organs have grown fins and gills and are now swimming around inside, making me feel like I didn't just find my center with a quick three-mile run. Thunder echoes from far away and I glower at Carter. He's to blame for this. "You followed me all this way? For what? So you can blow me off again?" He takes a minute to respond. His body has thickened up since we were kids, lined with hard, lean planes. He's in good shape, but I guess he doesn't run. He really needs to work on his endurance. If I were still training at the gym, I'd start him with just ten-minute intervals. In thirty days, he'd be blowing through a 5K. Midyear, a half marathon. But these thoughts are dumb and pointless. I was fired two weeks ago. And Carter, as far as I know, has never set foot in Cranberry Fitness Studio, anyway. Excerpted from Lightning in Her Hands by Raquel Vasquez Gilliland All rights reserved by the original copyright owners. 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