Chapter One: Claudine: After CHAPTER ONE CLAUDINE After THE LAST upload had been six months ago, in January. Nicole had posted only one photo of her, Tonye, and their two little sons next to a Batman-themed birthday cake outside in the garden. She looked very pretty posing in a white summer dress, Tonye's arm around her. Claudine traced their smiles with her finger. "Phone off now, please!" The air hostess waited impatiently in the aisle until Claudine pressed the power button and the screen went dark. Claudine settled back in her window seat and watched the Heathrow tarmac fall away. Slanted raindrops lashed the glass. Rain, rain, go away . She wouldn't miss the awful British summer. A thundering went through the aircraft, then a billowing sheet of cloud enveloped them, followed by a great calm and relief that it was too late to change her mind. Through the intercom came the pilot's announcement that the flight would be six hours to Lagos, arriving around 6 p.m. local time. The weather would be 75 degrees Fahrenheit at their destination and sunny. She hoped she wouldn't get to the house too late to ask questions. She didn't want to have to wait until tomorrow. Another night with Nicole still missing, no word on whether she was alive or dead, was bad enough. But at least Claudine would be there. Waiting for news thousands of miles away back in London, powerless to help, unable to do anything but watch the flies creep from one end of the window to the other, had been unbearable. Penny hadn't thought Claudine should go to Nigeria to find out what had happened. "This ain't on you, Claud," her sister had said. "You might've raised her, but you and Nicole haven't been close for years. Why go looking for someone who left and didn't look back?" Penny's question was fair. When Claudine didn't respond, she added, "It's not safe in Nigeria. Isn't there a war going on there with the Muslims? Boko--Boko something? They kidnapped all those girls. Hundreds of them. And I saw this program on BBC Two-- Welcome to Lagos , it was called--where everyone lived on a rubbish dump. Everyone. They lived on it. The rubbish! How you supposed to find Nicole in a place like that? Bet Tonye forced her to move there." Here we go again with the Nigeria-bashing convention, Claudine had thought. Never mind Nicole's husband and picture-perfect life. Being happy for someone was too much to ask in their family, so they had to peck it apart at every opportunity, going on about Nigeria as if Jamaica didn't have any poverty or corruption. What did they know about it? If you believed the pictures posted on social media, Nicole lived in a mansion by the water with a beautiful garden and a swimming pool. She had expensive clothes, even those shoes with red bottoms. She enjoyed parties and holidays, surrounded herself with rich friends. But Claudine had learned not to get into it with Penny, whose hindsight was as bad as her foresight, always coming up with ridiculous revelations about things that happened years ago, like her insistence that her name was actually Pauletta, but Mummy had changed it to Penny on account of her being brown like a penny. That she knew there was something wrong with Len. And now, that Nicole had been forced to move to Nigeria. Honestly, you couldn't make up half of what came out of Penny's mouth. Funny, Penny had been the first to cry when Claudine relayed the news about Nicole's disappearance, that she had gone on a boat trip in Lagos and hadn't come back. That there had been no sign of her since, that Tonye thought it was possible she had drowned in the lagoon. Claudine hadn't cried. She wasn't a crier. What good would crying do anyway? She had simply watched Mummy, Penny, and Michael--what was left of the Roberts family in the UK after almost fifty years--carrying on for Jesus as if she'd announced Nicole was dead. A Punch and Judy puppet show in the simple dining room of their nondescript semi with double-glazed windows in the middle of a street one wouldn't remember in deepest, darkest South London. That's how it went with them. Penny, crying for attention; Michael, overexcited, cursing at the moon; Mummy, striking her chest with her fist, calling on God with all his known aliases, meantime her eyes probably drier than concrete. None of it meant a damn thing. If Nicole was dead, all the howling in the world wouldn't bring her back. Claudine's coworkers at Fashion Maxx were less fussed about her going to Nigeria. They helped her find some things she might need on the trip. A strong cross-body handbag with hidden inner pockets so she couldn't easily be pickpocketed. Some running shoes for all the walking she would have to do, and plenty of T-shirts. It was bound to be very hot. "They say the sky's much bigger over in Africa," said one coworker, who had never left the UK due to a fear of flying and her dislike of the French. Everything she knew about the world came from the Pick Me Up! magazines she read on her lunch breaks. Claudine hadn't told them the full story, only that she urgently had to visit her niece, who had married a Nigerian man and was living out there. Another coworker's advice was more practical. She'd spent her childhood in Nigeria but had been wrestling with mystery immigration problems ever since her arrival in the UK and couldn't go back. "You'll be fine," she had said. "Just stick with the people you know." That could be a problem. "Complimentary champagne, madam?" the hostess asked. Claudine took the glass, resting it on the mini tray table beside her. "Thank you. What movie are you showing today?" "You choose the movie. Use your fingers and select whatever you want to watch." The hostess pressed the screen, flashing up the various options. "First time flying?" "It's been a while," said Claudine. "And I've never sat in business class before." "This is premium economy, but we'll take the compliment." The hostess laughed. Claudine was confused. The last time she had flown, thirty years ago, there'd been no such thing as premium economy. She'd sat in economy. So what was the point of business? What on earth was in first class? She couldn't imagine. Still, nice of Tonye to pay for it all. Tonye had also said someone would meet her when she got off the plane and escort her to a car that would take her to the compound. He didn't have to do all this. He hadn't wanted her to come at all. The hostess demonstrated how to recline the chair, upending Claudine so her feet jerked into the air. "And here's your menu card," she said, tucking a fancy folded menu into the seat pocket. "We're likely to experience a little turbulence in this weather, so keep your seat belt on, and if you need anything at all, I'm right here." She tapped her name badge. "Annie." Turbulence? Lord have mercy. The seat next to Claudine was vacant, but most of the nearby rows were filled. Many passengers seemed to be Nigerian, some already dressed for home in their brightly patterned fabrics. Just like Jamaicans heading home, they'd paid no mind to the baggage allowance and stuffed the overhead bins to bursting. She'd barely found room for her one carry-on. If they were to hit turbulence, the bins would fly open and the bric-a-brac would fly out, killing them all. Claudine gulped her champagne quickly. Mind you, what were a few clouds compared to the storm she was likely flying into? She pictured the Oruwaris waiting for her to arrive, Tonye's father grim-faced as he had been throughout Tonye and Nicole's nuptials. "Like King Jaffe Joffer in Coming to America ," Penny had hissed, watching them from across the aisle. Two days ago, Claudine had called Tonye. "No word about the boat? Or the people Nicole was with? Have you checked all the hospitals?" "My people are working through all that," he had said. "We can only wait." "But it's been almost a week already. What are you waiting for?" Claudine thought of manhunts she had seen on the telly. Volunteers combing the forest with torches. Police out with their dogs to search for scents. TV appeals. It didn't sound like anything similar was happening in Lagos to find Nicole. "Well, we've had to rule out other things. Kidnapping. Her not wanting to make contact. Various factors. But let's talk again in a few days. If I find out anything in the meantime, I'll be sure to let you know." He cleared his throat. Claudine was quiet for a moment. Let you know . Something in his tone had sounded painfully familiar, reminded her of her youngest sister Jackie's death. That was what the family liaison officer had said while looking at his watch. And he never did come back to let them know exactly how Jackie had died. It had been a formality, just something said to end a conversation. "What do you mean about her not wanting to make contact?" she finally asked. "Sorry, what?" "You said you had to rule out Nicole not wanting to make contact." "It's... something the police said." "But not wanting to make contact? Why wouldn't she want to?" "It doesn't mean anything. Rest assured. Just procedure. They consider all possibilities." Claudine breathed deeply. "I think I'd better come out there, Tonye." "Out where?" he said, suddenly sounding much closer to the receiver. "To Lagos?" "Yes, there are too many unanswered questions. I want to be there, talk to the police, help any way I can." "But, auntie, why?" he said. "Everything is under control. We are talking to the police." "So I shouldn't come?" "I mean, come if you'd like. I really don't see what you're going to do here. You've not even been to Nigeria before. We have a certain way of doing things." "I'd like to see the children," she said firmly. "And at least one relative should be representing our family. We have a certain way of doing things too." Tonye had little to say after that, and the call soon ended. He'd even asked why. Why? As if she had no business going. Like a typical man, he'd assumed she'd go along with anything he had to say, and he seemed shocked that she, any of them, would care enough to travel there. Bloody cheek. It was difficult to shake off the feeling that Tonye was holding back a lot more. But at least it gave her hope that Nicole was still alive. She could be stranded somewhere, lying in a hospital, hurt but alive. Until Claudine laid eyes on Nicole's body herself, she wouldn't believe it. Claudine fiddled with the entertainment screen and scrolled through the movie selection, deciding on Unforgiven . She didn't think she had seen it before, but the opening scene of a house, a tree, and someone digging underneath it seemed familiar. The house was plain. The tree was bare, but its network of branches fanned up and outward across the sunset, shading the person digging. Of course she thought of 49 Nedford Road and the pear tree by the living room window that grew thirsty and full of itself in summer, shrank shorn and sharp in winter. Even if she had already watched Unforgiven , it would have been years ago, and so much from the past was hazy now, things done or said completely forgotten. Time didn't heal exactly, but crushed memories under its weight until they were no longer visible. Mercifully in most cases. At her age, you had to really want to remember, and in her shoes, who would want to? Looking back hurt too much. What if she'd done this differently, that differently? Never gone to the park that day? Life was hard enough without dragging all that shit along too. Oh, Nicole, she fretted. Where are you? She forced herself to pay attention to Unforgiven . It was the kind of movie she liked, with all the elements of a good Western, a tin-pot town in the middle of nowhere, pretty women in distress, everyone hell-bent on justice. Clint Eastwood. Good old Clint. It was no Rawhide , though. The memory of those Saturday mornings, curled up in front of the gas fire as a child, watching Rawhide with her siblings, flashed up, vivid, scalding, too painful to enjoy. It wasn't a childhood you would wish on anyone. It wasn't a childhood. In her line of sight across the aisle were two little girls: one whose black shoes barely touched the floor and a slightly older one who held her hand protectively. Similarly dressed in pink cardigans with white blouses underneath, and sky-blue skirts with lacy knee-high socks. Sitting upright, so prim and proper on the wide seats, they looked just like dollies on the shelf in a toy store. When food was served, Claudine nibbled at the chicken and jollof rice she had chosen. At least their food was nice and spicy. She'd never been one to jump to conclusions like Mummy and Penny did, that everything Nigerian was "bad" and "wicked." She'd liked Tonye the first time Nicole brought him to Nedford Road. "Too dark," Mummy had whispered loudly, squinting at him suspiciously. But even Mummy couldn't deny he was very handsome. Not a pretty face. No fine features and long lashes, not a light-skinned Harry Belafonte, whose songs Mummy would hum while kneading wet dough into dumplings, but a tall, broad-shouldered man with large eyes and a smile that made everyone feel happy. His beauty was in his solidness. His large, capable hands, his self-assurance. Everything about him looked stable. Regal. He looked you right in the eye when he spoke. And so polite, so charming, responding graciously as Mummy peppered him with ridiculous questions like, did they eat monkeys in Nigeria? But since Tonye's call, she didn't know about him anymore. He'd sounded so cold, so emotionless. No tears. No urgency. Nothing you'd expect from someone whose wife had gone missing. Polite as ever, but no answers to any of her questions. Said he didn't know anything except that she went on a boat trip on Sunday, July 6, and didn't make it home. He couldn't tell Claudine who Nicole had gone on the trip with, where she went, what had happened to the boat, if she was dead or alive or was kidnapped or even had just run off somewhere. Claudine had barely slept for worrying about it. The last photo of Tonye and Nicole showed a man in love with his wife, but pictures could lie. Men lied all the time. Men held you in their arms and lied and smiled and lied. Too lie! Even with their last breath. Tea arrived. An extra bag, milk and two sugars. She sipped, and felt better. A good cuppa always made things better. Claudine glanced over at the girls again. The older one was helping the younger one with her snacks. Something about them reminded her of herself and Penny. They must have been about the same ages when they'd traveled to the UK from Jamaica for the first time. But these girls looked impossibly young. So vulnerable. Like babies. Even though she'd been practically the same age as Penny, she'd always mothered her like that little girl was doing now--taking the other girl's hand and telling her everything was going to be okay. Claudine knew what that felt like. The crushing weight of responsibility. To step up when no one else would. CLAUDINE OPENED her eyes to lights on in the cabin and a flurry of activity as passengers threw off their blankets and made last dashes to the toilets. The seat belt sign came on, and the pilot announced they should prepare for landing. Unforgiven had long since finished, but she couldn't remember how it ended. She noticed the two little girls were gone. "I hope you had a nice rest," said Annie, appearing at her elbow. "Do you need help returning your seat to the upright position?" Claudine nodded gratefully as Annie jerked her up. "Annie, what happened to those two little girls sitting there?" She pointed to where they'd been. "Two little girls?" asked Annie, looking around the cabin. "I didn't see them. Were they bothering you?" "No, not at all. They were sitting right there for most of the flight, then they just disappeared. One bigger girl, one smaller. I think they were traveling alone." Annie shook her head and stowed Claudine's tray. "Those seats have been empty the whole flight. I think I would have noticed two little nuggets sitting there. And we don't allow children under fourteen to fly alone anymore. Are you sure you didn't mean another row?" Claudine frowned, then smiled quickly. "Must be my mistake. Thank you, Annie." She chastised herself for drinking the champagne and braced as the plane seemed to nose-dive toward land. Excerpted from The Nigerwife: A Novel by Vanessa Walters All rights reserved by the original copyright owners. Excerpts are provided for display purposes only and may not be reproduced, reprinted or distributed without the written permission of the publisher.
