1 Let It Snow I've never been what one might call a winter person. Witches are supposed to feel naturally aligned with the Wheel of the Year, receptive to the charms of every season-and nowhere is that easier than in Thistle Grove, where every type of weather is utterly and gorgeously flamboyant, the most extravagant cosplay version of what it might look like anywhere else. In theory, I could appreciate the extremeness of its contrasts; all that diamond-faceted white, blazing against the blue of windswept skies and the stark black silhouette of Hallows Hill. I could even get behind winter chic, when it came to sleek aprs-ski wear. And then there was Yule, with its fragrant wreaths and crackling logs and sea of candlelight. Arguably the most luminous and magical of the solstices. But in practice? Winter is horribly inelegant and messy, almost impossible to calibrate. One too many layers leaves you sticky and sweltering, while one too few lets the chill creep into your bones. Your hair turns into kindling, or poufs into a staticky halo immune even to glamour spells. You can't even run properly in winter, unless you're a die-hard marathoner with no self-preservation instincts left intact. All around cruel and unusual. At least we rarely suffered more than two months or so of such yearly punishment in Thistle Grove. But this year, strangely, winter seemed to suit me. This year, I found every fresh snowfall soothing, almost meditative. There was one raging right now beyond the frost-rimed window of the Silver Cherry, where I was grin-and-bearing my way through a jewelry-making class; a feathery whirlwind, like being inside a shaken snow globe filled with drifting down. It felt hypnotic, a chaotic escapade of white that made it hard to hold on to any single thought for long. Which, these days, was more than fine by me. These days, my thoughts and I didn't tend to be on the best of terms. "Sweetheart," Jessa said, in that delicate tone she'd taken to using on me, like one harsh note might topple me over, damage me in some irreparable way. She didn't have to be quite that careful with me, but I loved that she wanted to be. "You're doing your depressed mime face again." The words themselves didn't tend to match up with the spun-sugar tone all that often, because she was still Jessa, and I loved her for that, too. "What?" I mumbled, finally tearing my eyes from the window. "My . . . what?" "You know." She rearranged her adorable, ringlet-framed features into a truly dismal expression, drooping puppy-dog eyes and a dramatically downturned mouth like a melancholy bass. "Like you're about to perish of chronic woe. Or possibly planning to re-create that scene from The Giver where the kid and his little brother escape into the snow to die with their emotions." "It's been a while since middle school English class, but even so, I'm fairly sure that wasn't supposed to be the takeaway," I told her with a snort. "And hard pass on that cold demise. If I absolutely have to die somewhere with my emotions, I'd rather go all nice and toasty." Dragging my attention back to my little work tray, strewn with a glittery mishmash of wire and beads, I saw that I'd been halfheartedly tooling around with making earrings before the blizzard got the best of me. Once upon a time, I'd have crafted something gorgeous given an opportunity like this, painstakingly applied myself until I had it just right. Too bad "once upon a time" felt like several eons and an infinity of wrong turns ago. "Burn you at stake, then, noted," Jessa quipped-though of course, thoroughly normie as she was, my best friend had no idea how close to home that hit. As far as I knew, Jessa had never once seriously considered the notion that our charming postcard of a town really was settled by witches, exactly like Thistle Grove legend would have you believe. To her, I was just Nina. Best friend and partner in crime from our shared law school days, now in-house counsel to my family's extensive business interests. Not Nineve Cliodhna of House Blackmoore, second in line to the most powerful witch dynasty in Thistle Grove. "Don't worry, buddy," I assured her. "I do still have considerable will to live. Just not, like, enough zest to care about these earrings, apparently." Jessa pooched out her lower lip, abandoning the complicated (and suspiciously BDSM-looking) beaded choker she'd been working on. "But that's the point," she insisted, smooth brow wrinkling with concern. "That's what these classes are for, Nina. We're supposed to be nurturing our creative selves, meeting new people, rediscovering your zest. Unearthing it." She looked so crestfallen that for the barest moment, I entertained the idea of assembling the pitiful bead hodgepodge into something pretty with a simple transmutation spell of the pumpkin-into-carriage variety, but even more basic. The raw materials were already right in front of me, half-threaded. I could have done it with just a few words, using a single, purely distilled thought as a vehicle of my will. But that wouldn't have been honest or fair, which was part of the reason I never did magic in front of my best friend. For the safety and the continuing preservation of our town, as per the Grimoire-the spellbook that also held sway over the conduct and governance of Thistle Grove's witch community-only long-term, witchbound partners were permitted access to that secret. And for all that I adored Jessa to pieces, our friendship wasn't the kind of love the founders had had in mind when deciding who should be privy to our magic. Letting the oblivion glamour that was cast over the town take hold of her, erasing her memory of whatever spell I'd worked, would have felt . . . traitorous. A little gross, even. And it would have been a cop-out at best. Jessa was the kind of delightful whirlwind of a person who effortlessly transformed strangers into friends-or short-lived partners, as the case may be-wherever she went, and I knew she'd been hoping a little of that joie de vivre might rub off on me. Tonight's jewelry-making class was the fourth hopeful outing of its kind, following a disastrous wine-and-paint night (during which I'd gotten the not-artistically-conducive kind of wasted), an equally catastrophic pottery class that had reminded me of Sydney's love of ceremonial teacups and sent me spinning into a meltdown, and a flower-arranging class that had only managed to unearth memories of the ivory-and-rose-gold palette I'd chosen for the flowers at my own wedding. A wedding that was never going to happen, much like the perfect life with Sydney that had been meant to materialize thereafter. A life that now seemed not just fictional, but so fantastically unbelievable that I, a flesh-and-blood descendant of the sorceress Morgan le Fay, couldn't conceive of it as a reality. "You're talking about me like I'm some archeological dig, Jess, and we're troweling for ancient potsherds of joy. What if there's no zest to unearth? What if I'm just a barren wasteland?" I dropped my chin, the familiar, hateful well of tears pressing against my eyes. I was so damn sick of crying at the slightest provocation, like some weepy damsel stuck in a mire of never-ending distress, but I'd apparently won the sob lottery. Team #Leaky4Life over here. "Permanently broken?" "Everyone's fixable, sweetheart," Jessa assured me, slipping a soft arm around my shoulders and tilting her temple against mine. She favored those subtle skin-musk perfumes that you couldn't detect on yourself-the kind I'd never go for, because what was the point if you couldn't catch indulgent whiffs of it throughout the day?-but that made her smell gorgeous, a vanilla-cedar scent that hit somewhere between gourmand and woody. Being hugged by her felt like free aromatherapy. "Even that guy you dated with the towering manbun?" I asked, a little damply. "You say that like there's only been one . . . which, would that were the truth." "The one who drank so much Bulletproof Coffee it was like he was speaking in fast-forward all the time," I clarified. "And did biceps curls while taking dumps." "Fuck no, not him." She shuddered delicately against me, sticking out her tongue-which was pierced, something no other estate lawyer I knew could ever have gotten away with. Apparently a deceptively angelic face like Jessa's covered a multitude of sins, even when it came to the most uptight of clients. "Everyone but Chasen, then." "Of course that was his name. And what about dictators? Or sex cult leaders? Or serial killers?" "Now you're just being difficult. Allow me to rephrase, counselor." She shifted sideways against me, just enough to boop me on the nose. "You are fixable, sweetheart. Eminently so." "Then why can't I get into even this, the most emotionally undemanding of activities?" I asked her, that relentless ache lurching in my chest again. A panging disorientation that felt almost like homesickness, as my gaze skimmed over the dozen or so other people happily crafting beneath the cherry cutouts dangling from the ceiling, the recessed lighting spilling over them in a mellow glow. Mostly clusters of women around Jessa's and my age, along with a few mothers with their tweens in tow. Even the solitary goth enby with the pentagram neck tattoo-likely a tourist drawn to the Silver Cherry by its affiliation with Lark Thorn, who not only was teaching this class but also sold her line of enchanted jewelry here-looked to be having a more exuberant experience with this mortal coil than I was. "What kind of mess can't focus on stringing beads together? Or letting loose on a pottery wheel?" I swiped at my eyes, trying in vain to keep from smearing my eyeliner. "It's been a whole year, Jess. How long is this emotional fugue state even supposed to last?" My voice rose enough that on the other side of the room, Lark Thorn abruptly straightened from where she'd been instructing one of the tweens. She turned just enough to flick a concerned glance at me over her shoulder, deep brown skin glowing against the vivid turquoise of her scoop-neck sweater, her dark eyes liquid with sympathy. The Thorns were empathically attuned to one another's feelings, and acutely sensitive to others' emotional landscapes, too. Though I doubted Lark even needed their particular brand of ESP to detect the seismic rumble of my distress. The Nina I used to be had been unshakably sure of herself, vacuum-sealed into her composure. But these days, the old me felt like a fossil, a crumbling memory. These days, I was more of a tempest in a teacup. A flailing, distractible tempest that just could not seem to get it the hell together. I twitched my lips into an "everything's just peachy over here" smile, wincing inwardly as she gave me a lingering look before turning away. I wouldn't have agreed to come here tonight at all, had I remembered Lark's connection to the studio. Given how the Blackmoores' standing in this town had declined since the debacle of last year's Gauntlet of the Grove-not to mention the fact that my little brother, Gawain, had briefly come under suspicion when one of the Avramovs' dearly departed ancestors cursed the Thorns this past Beltane-the last thing I needed to be doing was signaling weakness in front of a member of one of the other families. The thought spurred me into taking a breath, stiffening my spine a little, and leaning away from Jessa as if she weren't, in fact, my load-bearing support column. Trying to act as though I at least remembered who I was supposed to be. "I don't think heartbreak's an exact science, sweetie. Though I will concur that maybe we've been going about this the wrong way," Jess concluded thoughtfully, nibbling on her lip. "You know what, why don't we ditch this and grab some drinks instead? Rethink our strategy?" "But what about your . . ." I gestured vaguely toward the abandoned snarl on her work tray. "Fetishwear-in-progress? It had such promise." She chuckled through her nose, not bothering to deny it. "I can always take it home. It was going to be for Steven, anyway . . . Ooh, maybe I can make him finish it for me, before he gets to wear it! You know, like a meta-kink moment. Foreplay for the foreplay." I stared at her for a second, equally confounded by the rigorous intellectual component her most recent bedroom exploits apparently called for, and the fact that her flavor of the week had already earned himself an actual name. By Jessa's standards, that was unusually rapid progress. Most of her conquests went by evocative nicknames the likes of "Lacrosse Jesus" or "Emo Clark Kent" until they dropped out of the rotation; maybe she actually liked this guy. "I do not claim to understand your ways, Jessamyn Singer, but I respect them," I finally said. "Just the way I like it." She slid the jewelry into a little ziplock, grinning to herself. "So, where do you want to go? Dive bar? Nice bar? Weird bar?" "Nice bar," I said automatically, suppressing a sniffle. My spirits rose a little at the idea of delicious craft cocktails and low lighting, the utter relief of not having to funnel any more energy into forcibly enjoying, or pretending to enjoy, yet another form of alleged entertainment. "See, there you are," she said warmly, reaching out to give me another squeeze. "Knew my favorite fancy bitch was in there somewhere." 2 Whimsical Bitches and Trickster Gods Ten minutes later, Jessa and I wedged ourselves into an empty booth at Whistler's Fireside, a waft of cold still clinging to us as we shed our layers and stamped our snow-crusted boots under the table, wind-lashed cheeks both numb and glowing. Whistler's majestic black walnut booths, with their intricately carved backs and must-and-varnish smell, looked like they'd begun their lives as pews in some medieval abbey. Bare Edison bulbs cupping twists of glowing filament swung above each table, and to our right, the bar top gleamed copper from the vintage pennies preserved under its glass slab, fat pillar candles flickering along its length. Even the cool blue cast of early-winter dusk drifting through the Victorian windows couldn't chill the aura of warmth. There was no actual hearth to be seen, despite the name-probably the owner's idea of an ironic joke-but the whole ethos of the bar did feel like sitting at a fireside. I loved it here. It reminded me of my favorite New York speakeasies, the ones that had brazenly ridiculous thousand-dollar concoctions tucked into the drink menus like dirty capitalist secrets, and all but demanded a password and secret handshake to get in, even though everyone and their mother knew where to find them. I couldn't help but enjoy that little thrill, the sense of being part of an exclusive club-especially when it wasn't real elitism, but just for fun, the way it was at Whistler's. Excerpted from Back in a Spell by Lana Harper All rights reserved by the original copyright owners. Excerpts are provided for display purposes only and may not be reproduced, reprinted or distributed without the written permission of the publisher.
