By Land I've lived on dirt roads that bent and ended at a gate of pines, the dust skipped up didn't make my mother look like a dream. I've lived on roads that dragged through America, I've paced only them to the next town. The road we kissed on is gone, rich folks buying up all the city in which we make do. I miss when Sonny could do a wheelie all the way down Person Street and no one would call the police because he was a part of the neighborhood like the honeysuckle bush between two yards, and he was beautiful, not like a horse standing alone in a yellow field, but like a man is beautiful. Most of the little towns have a road nicknamed Devil's Turn, where someone's brother died on a Saturday night while Nina sang Tell Me More and More and Then Some on the Caddy's radio, the moon the color of the oldest cardinal. Every road isn't a way out, some circle back like wolves, you can't get lost on them and they won't lose you, others wait for you to run out of gas then come alive with what your mother said would take you. Every road promises something like a father does, but when you arrive the town is empty, and you wait like a child questioning everything, the road itself laughing like a drunk man falling into a roadside ditch. The road I'm walking now is howling and full of moon, hopefully it'll lead to myself, hopefully they'll take me home. The Mechanical Cotton Picker for Black Chicago poets It wasn't that they killed John Boy in front of his mama's small blue house, and that no one called her Ms. Bluebird anymore out of respect, though she never minded the name, it made her believe she'd fly off some day, or that the sheriff let John Boy's body sit until even the babies stopped crying, their eyes filled with him, his body already going to marble no one would be able to lift from their sleep. It was that we could feed ourselves then by getting down on our hands and knees to pick cotton, and most knew what a body smelled like blowing down a dirt road. When Chicago reached my ear the war was full of bodies. They sent whole train cars for us black folk. I read the Defender and waited to hide my face behind the curtains of a northbound train and I prayed the train car would fly. The south truly doesn't want us to go. A Mississippi cop would catch a family disappearing behind a rainstorm and send them home, the clouds leaving four muddy fields at a time. I left like a season's first lover across a window, slowly like a southern sun diagonal on a work-back. I wanted to carry my aunts to Chicago with me like this obituary-filled Bible, these plums I got saved, purpling in my bag. When I Left a turkey vulture lifted from a field I still love. It was hunting season, birds flew off at the sound of rifles, we warred with brown rabbits. The vulture's head was bald and delicate like the old men in their hats with names on them like Ford, USA and Dodgers, to cover their soft skin, old men who stood in front of the breakfast truck stop across from the field, the butter partly melted in the middle of the grits, they also saw the vulture, knew how to scavenge, gathered, like horses or stars, in a junkyard looking for a rusted pearl. Those old men have died in their sleep by now, though no field could care how many will fall down in it and why. I want to sit here tonight still in love and vultureless listening to Sade. I'm still the boy who walked through a dying Sweet-potato field, though our small town wouldn't recognize me now. I have a different body, a dented body, fieldless and far gone. Excerpted from Cardinal by Tyree Daye All rights reserved by the original copyright owners. Excerpts are provided for display purposes only and may not be reproduced, reprinted or distributed without the written permission of the publisher.
