High school

Sara Quin, 1980-

Book - 2019

High School is the revelatory and unique coming-of-age story of Sara and Tegan Quin, identical twins from Calgary, Alberta, who grew up at the height of grunge and rave culture in the nineties, well before they became the celebrated musicians and global LGBTQ icons we know today. While grappling with their identity and sexuality, often alone, they also faced academic meltdown, their parents' divorce, and the looming pressure of what might come after high school. Written in alternating chapters from both Tegan's and Sara's points of view, the book is a raw account of the drugs, alcohol, love, music, and friendship they explored in their formative years. A transcendent story of first loves and first songs, High School captures... the tangle of discordant and parallel memories of two sisters who grew up in distinct ways even as they lived just down the hall from each another. This is the origin story of Tegan and Sara.

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Genres
Biographies
Published
New York : Farrar, Straus and Giroux 2019.
Language
English
Main Author
Sara Quin, 1980- (author)
Other Authors
Tegan Quin, 1980- (author)
Edition
First edition
Physical Description
ix, 369 pages : illustrations ; 22 cm
ISBN
9780374169947
  • Prologue (Sara)
  • Prologue (Tegan)
  • Introduction: Wild Rose Country (Sara)
  • Grade Ten
  • 1. Welcome to High School (Tegan)
  • 2. Grade-Ten Dirtbags (Sara)
  • 3. Every Bus Ride's a Gamble (Tegan)
  • 4. Acid (Sara)
  • 5. We're Holding it for a Guy (Tegan)
  • 6. Naomi (Sara)
  • 7. You Can't Say "Fag" (Tegan)
  • 8. Suicidal Tendencies (Sara)
  • 9. Basket Case (Tegan)
  • 10. Let's Rave (Sara)
  • 11. Tegan Didn't Go to School Today (Tegan)
  • 12. Hula-Hoops and Chainsaws (Sara)
  • Summer 1996
  • 13. A Summer Abroad (Tegan)
  • 14. Montreal (Sara)
  • Grade Eleven
  • 15. Latchkey Kids (Tegan)
  • 16. Sex Note (Sara)
  • 17. Why Doesn't This Feel Right? (Tegan)
  • 18. The Haircut (Sara)
  • 19. You Won't Believe What Happened (Tegan)
  • 20. Homosexual
  • 21. My Girlfriend Has a Boyfriend (Sara)
  • 22. Looking for a Hero in all the Wrong Places (Tegan)
  • 23. Switchblade (Sara)
  • 24. Ditch Pigs (Tegan)
  • 25. Light Punk (Sara)
  • 26. Who's In Your Band? (Tegan)
  • 27. I'M Making You Sick (Sara)
  • Summer 1997
  • 28. Something's Missing (Tegan)
  • 29. Boyfriend (Sara)
  • Grade Twelve
  • 30. The Hickey (Tegan)
  • 31. Psycho (Sara)
  • 32. We're Nothing Like Them (Tegan)
  • 33. Career and Life Management (Sara)
  • 34. Don't Believe the Things They Tell You, They Lie (Tegan)
  • 35. New Year's Eve (Sara)
  • 36. Back to Reality (Tegan)
  • 37. Garage Warz (Sara)
  • 38. The First Cut is the Deepest (Tegan)
  • 39. Quitter (Sara)
  • 40. Sara and Tegan (Tegan)
  • 41. What Do You Know About Love? (Sara)
  • 42. The Press Club (Tegan)
  • 43. I Need Space (Sara)
  • 44. Cognitive Dissonance (Tegan)
  • 45. Confession (Sara)
  • 46. I Was Already Gone (Tegan)
  • Epilogue
  • Expelled (Sara)
  • Under Feet Like Ours (Tegan)
  • Acknowledgments
  • List of Illustrations
Review by Publisher's Weekly Review

The Canadian musician authors focus on their high school years in this moody memoir set in the mid-1990s. The twin sisters tell their story in alternating chapters whose topics include first loves, coming out as gay, and making music. They heartbreakingly recall the girls they fell for and the discomfort that came with hiding their romantic relationships from critical adults. Even though the two bickered as teenagers ("It didn't matter what it was; everything was a battlefield," Sara writes), music always brought them together. Their life-changing moment came when they found their stepfather's guitar and played it for the first time. Their descriptions of touching the guitar match up strikingly. Writes Tegan: "Its thick body pressed into my thighs... the desire to play it felt instinctive." Adds Sara: "The weight of the wood felt intimate, touching almost all of me at once." The sisters began composing songs and eventually entered a contest that would get them a deal with PolyGram Records. The narrative ends as they gear up to make a name for themselves as artists. This quiet memoir--which includes family photos--will appeal to fans interested in the duo's formative years. (Sept.)

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Review by Kirkus Book Review

A coming-of-age memoir about how the Canadian twin sisters became successful recording artists.When they started high school, Tegan and Sara Quin considered themselves oddballs, outcasts, and misfits. They were big music fansNirvana, Green Day, the Smashing Pumpkinsbut had no particular musical aspirations. Other than being identical twins, there was not much to distinguish them from other teenagers trying to navigate the awkward yearscertainly nothing to suggest that they would soon become young recording stars and icons of the burgeoning LGBTQ community. These were pivotal years for the sisters, and their musical success would prove transformative. However, music almost seems like an afterthought here, as the authors proceed in alternating chapters to show how their experience was fairly typical. They did lots of drugs, got blackout drunk on occasion, went to parties that got out of control, experienced their sexual awakenings, and wrestled with their sexual identities. Both had boyfriends and girlfriends, and both struggled with the issue of whether a particular girl was her best friend or something more. They also fought a lot. The music came when they found a guitar that belonged to their stepfather and separately began writing songs and then harmonizing with each other's songs. The sisters also hid many of their experiences from each other, so it proved cathartic to write and share. "I wrote lyrics that sometimes felt too close to the bone," remembers Sara, recalling how the unraveling of her relationship with her girlfriend contributed to her songwriting surge. After arranging the song with her sister, she writes, "when we finished, I felt lighter." Their friends became fans of their music, and a self-recorded cassette helped expand that fandom. Winning a prestigious talent contest earned them studio time, and they marked their 18th birthdays by signing with one of the recording labels that had been pursuing them.A solid memoir mostly for fans of the band. Copyright Kirkus Reviews, used with permission.

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High School 1. TEGAN WELCOME TO HIGH SCHOOL "Tell her to get out. Tell her to leave us the fuck alone," Sara screamed as we brawled and Mom tried to separate us. "Naomi's my best friend. Tell her to get one of her own." It took all the air from inside me when Sara said it, like a bad fall. The summer before we started high school, Sara and I were virtually estranged. During the day you could find me moping in the basement of our baby blue two-story house, deep in the suburbs of northeast Calgary, watching TV alone. If I wasn't there, I was in my room with the door locked, playing music so loud my ears rang. While my mom and stepdad, Bruce, were at work, Sara and I either aggressively ignored each other or were at each other's throats. We fought, mercilessly, for time alone, but I still felt a primal fear of being apart from her, especially as high school loomed. I was plagued with anxiety dreams all summer, in which I wandered the halls of our school searching for her. The dreams stoked the dread I already felt, adding layers of questions I avoided in the light of day like I avoided Sara. We hadn't always been like this. Naomi had complicated things. We met her in grade nine, our final year of junior high, when the French immersion program she was enrolled in moved to our school. Naomi was small, blond, with lively, sparkling green eyes. You couldn't miss her in the halls. She dressed in brightly colored clothes and said hi to everyone. She oozed friendliness and kindness. Around her, a tight-knit pack of equally cool-looking girls we'd nicknamed the Frenchies was always with her. Sara and I became fast friends with all of them, but Naomi drew Sara and me in closest. For a time, we were both Naomi's best friends. This was nothing new; Sara and I had always shared a best friend growing up. Our shared best friends acted as a conduit between us: we confessed to them what we couldn't tell each other, and knew they'd pass along the message. We seemed to prefer it this way. But at the end of grade nine, Naomi and Sara forced an abrupt unraveling of this friendship after Naomi told us she and some of the other Frenchies planned to attend Aberhart High School, instead of Crescent Heights, like us, that fall. After that, Naomi and Sara acted as if Naomi were being shipped overseas, rather than across town. They isolated themselves as summer started, hid behind the locked door of Sara's room, and left me out of their plans for sleepovers. I felt confused, injured, abandoned. I instigated violent clashes with Sara in front of Naomi when they left me out, further damaging whatever bond remained between the three of us. It was war. After the fight, Mom followed me back to my room, where she watched as I sobbed on top of my bed, gulping back lungfuls of air, trying to calm down. Mom was an intake worker on a mental health line, working long shifts that meant Sara and I were free to kick the shit out of each other without a referee in earshot all summer. Throughout most of our lives, she balanced school and work, getting first a bachelor's and then a master's in social work while holding down a job. She was also a cool mom, someone our friends could confide in when they had problems at home or school. "Your mom's so easy to talk to," my friends constantly told me. But as she watched me cry, I felt her analyzing the situation, and me, and I felt resentful; I just wanted to be left alone. "I don't know why you two aren't getting along anymore. You used to be so close. I mean, my god, you used to cry the first day of school, every single year, because you weren't allowed to be in the same class together." It was true. When Sara's name was called and she reluctantly walked away from me toward her own class, my eyes would fill with tears every time, despite my attempts to will them away. When Sara turned back, she'd look stricken when she saw the tears racing down my cheeks. Growing up it had hurt to be without her, but somehow by the end of junior high, she had turned into someone it hurt to be around. "She's . . . mean . . . I . . . don't . . . know . . . why . . . they . . . leave . . . me . . . out . . ." As I tried to get out an explanation through hiccups and near hyperventilation, Mom just nodded sympathetically, which made me want to throw myself out the window. "You might like having your own best friend," she suggested. "You've always had to share with her, Tegan. It could be nice for you to have someone of your own. Don't you think?" I didn't bother answering. She couldn't possibly understand what Sara had taken from me that night. It wasn't just the loss of Naomi; it was that no one could replace Sara. The morning of our first day of grade ten, while Sara and I waited for Bruce to drive us to the bus stop, I suggested we steal a few loonies from his ashtray so we could buy Slurpees. Sara egged me on and kept a lookout as I pocketed the change. I felt united with her in our entitlement to his money. We blamed him for moving us to the suburbs, where no direct buses to school went and none of our friends lived. An hour later I grabbed Sara's arm as we pushed through the towering wooden doors at Crescent Heights into the two-story student center. "Come on. Let's go find our friends." Around us, arriving students permeated the space with the smell of fresh clothes and new rubber-bottomed sneakers. I sensed nervousness in the faces of everyone we passed, even Sara's. Somehow, I felt calm. Junior high had been an endless shitshow, an exhausting hellscape that lasted the entire three years we were there, never letting up or letting go. High school couldn't possibly be worse. "There," I said, grabbing Sara's arm. "There she is." "Kayla," Sara yelled, waving her arms wildly to get her attention. Before we shared Naomi, we shared Kayla. I guess that made her our ex-best friend. I had spotted her in the gymnasium on the first day of grade seven. She was lean and tan and had curly brown hair, and her eyes were every shade of blue. Those first few weeks of grade seven everyone vied for her attention: her friends, boys, me, and Sara. She moved with the confidence of a cheerleader, even though she had braces. We were impossibly uncool, clinging to the bottom rung of the social complex, but Kayla and Sara shared a homeroom and became friends, leapfrogging Sara from obscurity to notable best friend overnight. By proxy, I leapt, too. For a time, the three of us were always together in the halls at school. At sleepovers on weekends, Kayla always insisted our sleeping bags go on either side of hers. But the friendship was tumultuous, complicated by the shrapnel of adolescence, and by the end of grade eight Sara and I had emancipated ourselves from the larger group we shared with Kayla. Now that Sara was officially calling Naomi her best friend, I was secretly hoping to reconcile with Kayla to make her mine. All mine this time. "Hi," Kayla gasped happily when she reached us, throwing her arms around Sara and me. Kayla's older sister was two years ahead of us in grade twelve, and the kind of popular that made you consider throwing yourself down a set of stairs to make room for her if you were in her way. Kayla gave off the kind of confidence endowed by a popular older sibling, and I basked in her embrace, hoping it might bolster me for later, when I would face the halls and my classes alone. At a minimum, I hoped that knowing Kayla meant anyone who might bother me would think twice about messing with me, a friend of Kayla's sister. An announcement over the P.A. ordered us grade tens toward the gymnasium. We joined a line of kids who were already making their way there. Inside, we left Kayla to find the table with the letter of our last name to get our locker assignments and student agendas. "You're next to each other," the grade twelve said, checking off Sara's name and mine from the list in front of her as she handed us our locker combinations. "Twins?" "Yes," we answered together. "Cool." We reunited with Kayla on the wooden bleachers and compared class schedules. I squealed when I saw we shared a class in sixth period called Broadcasting and Communications. "What is it?" Kayla scrunched her face and laughed, locking her wide eyes on me waiting for an explanation. "I can't remember." I shrugged. "Something about making movies? Who cares, we're together, that's what matters." When a balding man in a tan suit with a wide striped tie took the stage, the gym quieted quickly. In a booming voice that didn't match his small frame, he welcomed us to our first day of high school and introduced himself as our principal. Then he explained the first day was a half day. This inspired a round of cheers. After that he recited the school rules, finishing with the rule he considered most important, in a stern tone of warning: "Crescent Heights has a zero-tolerance policy when it comes to drugs. If you are caught with any illegal substance on school property, or under the influence at any time, you will be expelled. No exceptions." At this, the gymnasium exploded into hooting, jeering, and whistles that went on for a full minute. A group of guys from our junior high who'd been mixed up in a gang whistled and stood, high-fiving one another. I marveled at their disregard for authority, even if they were jerks. Kayla, Sara, and I rolled our eyes at one another as the principal shushed the block of students in front of him. "This is not a joke, folks. I don't encourage you to test me on this policy, because I assure you we are quite serious here at Crescent Heights about drugs." Kayla, Sara, and I had dropped acid a few times that past summer, and it had unexpectedly mended the broken parts of our friendship with Kayla. But I also noticed that while we were high, Sara and I got along. We even had fun together. It had been so long since that had felt possible that I'd forgotten Sara could be fun. The two of us talked almost constantly, when Mom and Bruce weren't around, about where we could find acid again and when we could do it next. After nearly an entire summer of not talking, we had found a way to connect with each other again. Acid provided a small square of neutral territory, relief from the war that had been raging between us since Sara and Naomi had bounced me from their union. But the LSD also provided a bridge. And it seemed that in order to get past where we'd been stuck for so long, Sara and I needed one. For all intents and purposes that bridge was drugs, specifically acid, which we couldn't have been more thrilled about. "I'm serious about drugs, too," I whispered to Sara and Kayla, who chuckled conspiratorially. "Shhh," Kayla said, looking around guiltily as the principal continued his speech. "If my sister finds out I did acid, no--check that, if she finds out any of us tried acid, she'll fucking kill us." "Well, don't tell her," Sara said. "Yeah, don't ruin it for us," I added. "Then keep your fucking voices down." "Alright, chill." I laughed and threw my arm around her. "No one will find out," I whispered. Just then the bell rang and six hundred grade tens stood in unison, forcing the three of us to our feet. As we made our way down the bleachers, I clutched the back of Kayla's jean jacket; behind me, Sara clutched mine. We slowly made our way toward the doors that would lead us to the hallways I'd been anxiously dreaming about all summer. Before we got there, the principal took to his mic one more time: "Welcome to high school," he boomed. "Good luck." Excerpted from High School by Sara Quin, Tegan Quin All rights reserved by the original copyright owners. Excerpts are provided for display purposes only and may not be reproduced, reprinted or distributed without the written permission of the publisher.