This darkness mine

Mindy McGinnis

Book - 2017

Sasha Stone knows her place -- first-chair clarinet, top of her class, and at the side of her oxford-wearing boyfriend. She's worked her entire life to ensure that her path to Oberlin Conservatory as a star musician is perfectly paved. But suddenly there's a fork in the road, in the shape of Isaac Harver. Her body shifts toward him when he walks by, her skin misses his touch even though she's never known it, and she relishes the smell of him -- smoke, beer, and trouble -- all the things she's avoided to get where she is. Even worse, every time he's near Sasha, her heart stops, literally. Why does he know her so well -- too well -- and she doesn't know him at all? Sasha discovers that her by-the-book life began ending another's: the twin sister she absorbed in the womb. But that doesn't explain the gaps of missing time in her practice schedule or the memories she has of things she certainly never did with Isaac. As Sasha loses her much-cherished control, her life -- and heart -- become more entangled with Isaac. Armed with the knowledge that her heart might not be hers alone, Sasha must decide what she's willing to do -- and who she's willing to hurt to take it back.

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Young Adult Area YOUNG ADULT FICTION/McGinnis, Mindy Due Jun 16, 2024
Psychological fiction
New York : Katherine Tegen Books, an imprint of HarperCollins Publishers [2017]
Main Author
Mindy McGinnis (author)
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378 pages ; 22 cm
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Review by Booklist Review

McGinnis' (The Female of the Species, 2016) latest novel introduces protagonist Sasha Stone, a relentlessly driven high-school senior who discovers a dangerous secret about herself. As first chair clarinet and top of her class, Sasha has always been an overachiever. As she starts to feel an inexplicable connection to Isaac, the school's resident bad boy, she begins to question her identity. When she loses track of huge chunks of time, Sasha takes matters into her own hands and discovers an ultrasound of herself and her twin sister, Shanna. Ever since Sasha absorbed her sister in utero, Shanna has always been there, lurking in the darkness of Sasha's mind. Communicating through exchanged notes, Sasha and Shanna wrestle over control of Sasha's body and the boy they are both falling for. Though not the strongest of McGinnis' signature psychological thrillers, the novel's most compelling feature is the cryptic, surrealist style with which Shanna writes. Rich imagery and a ruthless protagonist propel the novel forward to its shocking, ominous conclusion.--Kling, Caitlin Copyright 2017 Booklist

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Review by School Library Journal Review

Gr 10 Up-Sasha Stone is a Midwestern "good girl": a smart, college-bound band geek with a preppy boyfriend and a close circle of friends. After a few mysterious texts and personal memories she doesn't feel are her own, she finds a photograph uncovering a past she didn't know existed: she was a twin sister. With a strained family life, Sasha discovers more about her twin through an unlikely source: her twin, or rather, the heart of her twin. Through a process called fetal reabsorption, Sasha's heart is really her twin's. Shanna, who is not a good girl, is trying to communicate with Sasha, turning her world upside down and leading into a series of plot twists and turns, and a downward spiral from her perfect high school life. Shanna is craving the life she never had-desiring bad boy Isaac, sex, and life in the fast lane- which causes Sasha's grades to plummet, her friends and boyfriend to become distant, and worst of all, her loss of the first chair in band. More character development of "Good Sasha" would make for a better contrast in personalities, as well as make the later claims of manipulation against Sasha stronger; however, it is an interesting read which addresses family issues and mental health, while blending the elements of a psychological thriller. VERDICT Recommended for older teens and fans of disturbing yet satisfying plot twists.-Doneanne Soult, Westampton Middle School, NJ © Copyright 2017. Library Journals LLC, a wholly owned subsidiary of Media Source, Inc. No redistribution permitted.

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Review by Horn Book Review

After high-school senior and good girl Sasha starts having blackouts and memories of sex with bad boy Isaac, she discovers she was once a twin who reabsorbed her sister Shanna in the womb. She still has Shanna's heart, and that's what governs Sasha's darker desires. The paranormal elements feel forced, though readers who love unreliable narrators may still find much to enjoy here. (c) Copyright 2018. The Horn Book, Inc., a wholly owned subsidiary of Media Source, Inc. No redistribution permitted.

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Review by Kirkus Book Review

A perfectionist prude is slowly revealed to have bigger character flaws.Sasha Stone is the stereotypical driven, uptight white girl, her whole life structured around achieving her goals, to the point where she has no sympathy for others. She practices her clarinet until her hands ache. Her boyfriend is pleasant and equally high-achieving, and her interactions with her friends have a mocking, scornful edge. But Sasha is normaluntil she starts having blackouts, until she starts getting texts from bad boy Isaac, acting like he knows her, until she discovers she had a twin sister named Shanna, whom Sasha absorbed in the womb. It's Shanna's heart in Sasha's chest, and it's Shanna's heart that loves Isaacnot Sasha, so she claims. The story swings from paranormal nonsense to medical melodrama when it's revealed that Sasha has cardiomyopathy and needs a new heart to survive. The mentally ill can't get new hearts, so Sasha must find a way to deal with Shannaalthough it won't be easy, as Sasha's own darkness within grows stronger. The author pulls her punches by camouflaging Sasha's darker tendencies with the Shanna storyline, undermining what could have been a fascinating character study. It's a shame the author couldn't have been as ruthless as her character. (Paranormal thriller. 16-18) Copyright Kirkus Reviews, used with permission.

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