PROLOGUE Summer Journeys: all her life she's loved journeys. She climbs onto the train, squeezes her way past other travellers, checking her ticket against the labels on the seats, and swings her small case onto the luggage rack. The middle-aged couple in the opposite seats smile at her as she slides in next to the window, and she smiles back but hopes they won't want to talk to her - not just yet. First she needs to settle into the feel of the journey, waiting for the sudden jolt as the train starts to move, experiencing the sensation that the station, the whole of the city, is slipping away behind her. As Jess looks out at the people on the platform she remembers riding in the back of the car as a small child, in her little seat, heading out to the seaside and, years later, when she was fetched from boarding school for an exeat or the holidays, being allowed to sit beside the driver - usually Mum, because Daddy was away with his regiment. That childish sense of excitement at the prospect of travelling is just as fresh today. Outside the window a girl in her early teens is saying goodbye to her parents: her small sweet face shows a mixture of excitement and vulnerability. She is pretending a bravado she does not quite feel: yes, she tells them, she has her ticket; yes, she has her mobile. She displays them again with an exaggerated show of patient resignation that does not for a moment deceive her parents. Her father leans to hug her and Jess sees his expression of love and anxiety, and she is suddenly filled with a familiar sense of desolation. It is eight years since her own father was killed on deployment in Bosnia but the loss is just as great: she still misses that particular kind of loving anxiety that her lucky friends take for granted. She misses his humour, his directness, the deep-down certainty that he was on her side. 'Your mum is such a strong woman,' people tell her. 'So brave.' And yes, Mum is both strong and brave but, when she married her diplomat lover a year later and moved to Brussels, Jess knew that the first part of her own life was finished: childhood was over. Then started the years of catching the Eurostar to Brussels; of spending holidays at the smart f lat near the EU buildings which, even now, doesn't feel remotely like home. Her mother is involved in entertaining, international politics, new friends; it's a world away from the army and married quarters. Slowly Jess has learned that she must forge her own way. She worked hard at school to get a place at Bristol University to study botany, made new friends; but she missed the underpinning security of her father's love, of a sense of support, of family. Now that she is older she realizes that part of the joy of travelling these days is because journeys allow her to postpone decisions and free her from anxiety about the future. Just for this time she can put life on hold and exist wholly in the moment. At last the train is pulling out of Temple Meads, gathering speed, and Jess holds her breath; her happy anticipation returns. She feels as if she is embarking on her most important journey so far: leaving university, heading for London and an unrevealed future. The couple sitting opposite are already unpacking food - cartons and packages and Tupperware boxes - as if they fear they might die of starvation between Bristol and London. Now that she looks at them more closely she sees a resemblance between them: the pouched cheeks and round, solid bodies remind her of Tweedledee and Tweedledum. They spread the feast out on the table between them and the woman looks questioningly at Jess as if she is considering offering her sustenance. Jess feels much too excited to be hungry. She wants to say: 'I've won an award. A really important one. The David Porteous' Botanical Painting Award for Young Artists. I'm going to London to collect it. Isn't it amazing?' But she doesn't say it lest they think she's boasting - or a bit mad. Instead she stares out of the window and wonders how well she's done in her finals and what kind of degree she might get. The Award - she can't control a little bounce in her seat at the thought of it - comes with a cheque for ten thousand pounds. Everyone - even her mother and stepfather - is really impressed with this. She regards it as a breathing space, a chance to see whether she might now pursue a career as an artist rather than her former plan to teach. Her stepfather, however, is still of the opinion that she should get straight on with her teacher training. 'You can paint in your spare time,' he tells her, as if her painting is just a hobby, something she can do on the side. When she tries to explain her passion for it he reminds her how Anthony Trollope wrote all his books after a hard day's work at the Post Office. Her stepfather is prosy and didactic, and she wants to scream at him. Her mother always looks anxious but rather stern at these times of confrontation, which happen more frequently since Jess left school, and Jess knows that she will not be on her side. 'I think you should listen to him, Jess,' she says, irritated by the possibility of argument and the disruption of carefully managed peace in this very controlled environment. 'He hasn't got where he is today . . .' And Jess listens politely to him - reminded inevitably of the character in that Reggie Perrin T V programme: 'Am I right or am I right!' - and then does her own thing anyway. In this case she's considering taking a year out to build on this amazing achievement. Even the sight of Tweedledum and Tweedledee munching their way steadily through sandwiches, pies and chocolate snacks doesn't spoil her absolute joy in this moment. Her thoughts rest anxiously upon the new dress packed in the bag on the rack above her head - is it suitable for a presentation? - and on the telephone conversation she had with Kate Porteous, David Porteous' widow. Kate sounded friendly, enthusiastic about the Award, looking forward to meeting her, and Jess is grateful for the phone call. 'Let's meet up before the presentation,' Kate suggested. 'Why don't we? Or will you be too busy with your family?' 'No,' Jess answered, slightly embarrassed. She has no close family on hand to offer support or encouragement or share her joy: no siblings or cousins; her only surviving grandparent lives in Australia. And she doesn't want to go into details about Mum being too busy with some diplomatic function to be able to get over for the presentation. 'But two friends from uni will be at the ceremony.' 'Great. Look, I'll give you my address. David's daughter kept his studio and she lets me use it when I'm in London. I was his second wife, you see. When are you planning to travel? I'm coming up from Cornwall the day before . . .' They talked for a little longer and so the arrangement was made. Jess would meet Kate at David's studio - his actual studio, where he'd done most of his work - and then they'd go out for supper and talk about what life was like with the great artist. It is the icing on the cake. Jess bites her lip to prevent herself from grinning madly with sheer pleasure at the prospect of it all. Tweedledum and Tweedledee are now slaking their joint thirsts with fizzy drinks in cans; squeezed together, they perspire and shift uncomfortably. Jess sits back in her corner and watches the countryside sliding past beyond the window. The journey has begun. At much the same time, Kate's train from Cornwall passes across the Bolitho Viaduct, and she sees a young woman and two small boys in the field below. They are standing in a row, staring upwards, waving furiously at the train. Seized by an impulse, she leans forward and waves back. The small boys jump about, waving with both hands, and she hopes they have seen her and redoubles her efforts. She sinks back in her seat, aware of the quizzical glance of the man opposite. He takes a newspaper from his briefcase and she is relieved. She doesn't want to get into a conversation, to explain her actions. Instead her mind turns to the past, towards picnics and outings when her twin boys were small: treks over Dartmoor, afternoons on the beach. In these memories it is always just the three of them: she and Guy and Giles. Even in the pre-divorce memories Mark is rarely with them. His submarine would have been at sea, showing the f lag abroad. Then after the divorce, years later, when Guy and Giles were at university, there was David with whom she shared fifteen happy years between her house on the edge of Tavistock and David's studio in London. She met artists, photographers, actors, enjoyed first nights, private exhibitions, studio parties: it was a world away from the nav y and married quarters. And now Guy and Giles are married with children of their own, and David is dead - and she is on her way to London to meet Jess Penhaligon, who has won his Botanical Painting Award. 'Not related to the actress?' asked Kate, to whom the name sounds familiar, and Jess, sounding puzzled, said no, there were no actresses in the family so far as she knew. It's rather sad, thinks Kate, that Jess has no family coming to the ceremony. It was clear that she didn't want to talk about this, although when Kate said she was travelling up from Cornwall Jess said: 'Cornwall? My father's family came from Cornwall. My grandfather was in the nav y. Do you live there?' Kate explained that, after David died, she'd sold the house in Tavistock and had been renting a friend's cottage on the north coast of Cornwall for the last three years. They talked about what it was like to be married to an artist, and how difficult it was to make a living, and Jess said proudly - though rather shyly - that she had a new ambition: to be acknowledged by the Society of Botanical Artists. Kate smiles to herself as the train speeds towards Plymouth. It is a huge aspiration, but Jess might just make it. As the man opposite turns the pages of his newspaper, and the refreshment trolley comes clattering along, some- thing that Jess has said niggles at the back of Kate's mind. It keeps niggling whilst she asks for coffee and thinks about the cottage she's buying in Tavistock. She has been persuaded that she should get back into the market while the prices are low, and she knows it's sensible, but she's not certain she wants the responsibility of buying to let, and she can't decide whether she wants to move back to Tavistock. She likes living on the north coast, on the sea's doorstep, and within walking distance of the writer Bruno Trevannion - landlord, friend, lover. Her friendship with Bruno has been very important during these last few years, since David died and Guy moved to Canada with his little family to work with his father in his boatyard. She misses Guy and Gemma and their young boys, worried that their relationship - already shaky when they moved - might have grown worse with Gemma so far from home and depending on two such undemonstrative men for company. Her own marriage foundered on Mark's lack of warmth, his detached indifference and bitter tongue, and though Guy is not exactly like his father there are enough similarities for Kate to fear that history might repeat itself. She sips the coffee, thinks about Jess again. As the train rumbles its way slowly across Brunel's iron bridge Kate gazes down towards the Hamoaze, where little sails f lit to and fro and the ferry plies between Torpoint and Devonport. Turning to look the other way, beyond the road bridge, she sees the familiar imposing façade of Johnnie Trehearne's manor house, set on the banks of the Tamar, and suddenly she makes the connection with the niggling thought in the back of her mind and Jess Penhaligon. Kate remembers Jess saying, 'My father's family came from Cornwall. My grandfather was in the nav y,' and she wonders if Jess's grandparents might be Mike and Juliet Penhaligon. Forty years ago Mike was a submariner, like Mark, and a favourite with the Trehearnes. Old Dickie Trehearne was Flag Officer Submarines, back then, and the parties at the elegant old house above the Tamar were legendar y. All the young cadets knew Al and Johnnie Trehearne. For centuries the Trehearnes had been sailors, traders, merchantmen, and Dickie and his sons followed in the tradition by joining the Royal Nav y. When he was knighted, Dickie threw a wonderful party that spilled out of the house and into the sea garden. It lasted until the early dawn. Kate sighs, remembering: such an evening it had been. Leaning forward to catch another glimpse of the house, she sees the shadows from her past: young officers in uniform, girls in long dresses. She feels the sharp twisting pain of nostalgia; names echo like a roll call and she murmurs them under her breath: Al and Johnnie Trehearne, Mike Penhaligon, Freddy Grenvile . . . On that Saturday of the party, all those years ago, she travelled up to Plymouth on this same railway line from Penzance, feeling shy; even awkward. She'd hesitated about accepting the invitation. 'Don't start dithering,' Cass had warned her. 'I know Mark's not invited but that's because he's not part of the Trehearnes' in-crowd. So what? You're not engaged to him yet. Good grief, you only met him a few weeks ago. Come and enjoy yourself. They always need extra girls and it's a really big party. Dickie Trehearne's just been promoted to Flag rank and knighted, and he's invited loads of young officers. You'll adore Johnnie Trehearne. You met him at the Summer Ball. Remember? Well, anyway, Tom and I are going and I know you'll just love it down there on the Tamar.' Beautiful, blonde, naughty - Cass was her closest friend. Five years together at boarding school on the north Somerset coast had created a strong bond, and both girls were determined that the friendship would survive beyond school. Now Cass had met a young naval officer, Tom Wivenhoe, and was falling in love with him, she was determined that Kate should be part of the naval scene, too. It was because of Cass that Kate had been invited to the Summer Ball at Dartmouth a few weeks earlier - and now to the Trehearnes' party. As she made that summertime journey from St Just, Kate wondered if Cass was already regretting introducing her to Mark. Tom and Mark were in the same house at the Royal Naval College, they both had ambitions to become submariners, but they weren't ver y close friends. Mark was reserved, quiet, a bit of a loner; Tom was extrovert, noisy, loved a crowd. It was sheer luck for Kate that Mark's prospective partner had twisted her ankle and Tom - egged on by Cass - persuaded Mark that Cass had a very pretty friend who would be happy to take the poor girl's place at short notice. The Royal Naval College, set high above the river, the ball gowns, the uniforms, the Royal Marines' Band playing on the quarterdeck at sunset: the Summer Ball had been the most romantic, exciting party Kate had ever been at; she couldn't imagine anything being more glorious. She'd fallen in love at once; with Dartmouth, the river, the nav y - and with the tall, handsome Mark, who seemed the embodiment of all these glories. Perhaps Cass had a point, thought Kate. She and Mark had exchanged telephone numbers and addresses, and a meeting was being planned, but she was still free to go to a party. She was in no way committed to him and it would be crazy to turn down such an opportunity. Mark might even be impressed that she'd been invited to such a popular senior officer's party. Cass was right: it would be fun and she'd regret it if she didn't go. Yet as she got down from the train, hoping her linen shift dress wasn't too crushed and clutching her overnight case, she was seized again by anxiety. She would know nobody but Cass - and Tom, just a bit but not very well yet - and she would be hopelessly out of her depth. She wished she hadn't come, even contemplated hopping back into the safety of the train, and then two young men appeared out of the bustle of holiday crowds on the platform. 'Kate,' called one of them, a fair-haired, rather stocky young man with a warm smile. 'It is Kate, isn't it? We met at the Summer Ball. Johnnie Trehearne.' She remembered him at once and with huge relief took his outstretched hand. 'And this is my cousin, Fred Grenvile.' He turned to his taller companion. 'You said you'd met Kate at the ball, Fred.' 'You were with Mark Webster,' said Fred, shaking her hand in his turn, giving her an appreciative grin. 'We all agreed that he didn't deser ve you.' She laughed, suddenly feeling delightfully confident, and he took her bag and they all went out into the station car park, where a Hillman Imp waited. 'My mother's car,' Johnnie said rather regretfully, patting the dented nearside bumper tenderly. 'But she's ver y generous with it. Al pranged it last week and I have to say she was ver y good about it. But then Al can do no wrong. Did you meet my big brother, Al?' He opened the passenger door and Kate slid in; sitting in the sun-warmed seat, she wondered if she'd met Al. There had been so many young men, alike in their uniforms, full of vitality and confidence. 'Doesn't matter if you didn't,' said Fred, climbing in behind her, leaning forward. 'You'll have your chance in a minute. He wanted to come to meet you but Johnnie and I won the toss.' Instinctively Kate knew that this wasn't true, that these two young ones had been detailed off to meet a fairly unimportant guest coming by train, and her heart was warmed by his courtesy. 'I'm glad,' she said. 'I remember you and Johnnie but I don't remember Al.' 'A-ha,' crowed Fred triumphantly, hitting Johnnie's shoulder. 'We've scored, Johnnie, my boy. She remembers us but she doesn't remember Al. It's a first. You must be sure to tell him, Kate, when you meet him. You will, won't you? I can't wait to see his face.' Kate glanced at Johnnie as he drove out of the car park and saw that he was smiling too, and she was filled with an irrational and overwhelming affection for these two; for Johnnie and Fred. The train rattles off the bridge and Kate sits back reluctantly in her seat. The man sitting opposite is watching her rather anxiously. He raises his newspaper a little higher, screening himself, and Kate is left to her memories: the ghosts of her youth and that first party at the Trehearnes' house on the Tamar. As the forty-foot yawl Alice sails through the busy waters towards the two bridges Sophie, sitting in the cockpit, glances up to watch the train rumbling off the bridge. Two children are standing at a carriage window, waving, and quickly, instinctively, Sophie waves back. Johnnie Trehearne, standing at the helm, smiles. 'Friends of yours?' he asks idly. She laughs. 'Don't you remember doing that when you were little? Waving at trains and lorry drivers and passing cars? It was always such a thrill if anyone waved back.' 'If you say so,' he says agreeably. They're heading upriver under power, avoiding a little group of racing Laser dinghies and a couple of Sunday sailors who take their boats out only at the weekend or at holiday time. Johnnie feels the sense of contentment that he always has out on the river or at sea. That moment when the anchor is hauled up, the mooring is dropped, or as the distance widens between boat and quayside, is when he is happiest. Perhaps, having spent his young years in the shadow of his older brother - glamorous, brilliant Al - it was his own way, back then, of experiencing independence and pride in his abilities. As a child, being alone in the dinghy - skimming over the water, testing his skills against the wind and the tide - expanded his self- esteem and confidence in a way that was never possible if Al was near. Today, as they motor up with the tide, Sophie's presence adds to his contentment. She is housekeeper, gardener, chief cook and bottle-washer, companion and ally. A close friend of his younger daughter, Sophie has been with them since both girls left university, and now, twenty years on, she is as dear to him as any other member of his family. 'One of Johnnie's lame ducks': this is how his mother referred to her in those early years, when he insisted that Sophie must be paid a salary for all the work she did. Yet Johnnie knows how much they owe to Sophie who has seen them through deaths and births and daily joys and traumas, with her own off-beat common sense and philanthropic cheerfulness. She came to them to recover from an abortion and a broken relationship, and simply stayed on. It's a bonus that she loves sailing and is a very competent sailor. After his darling Meg died, and when his girls and their families moved abroad - Louisa to Geneva, Sarah to Germany - he would have been very lonely without Sophie. Johnnie wonders if even Sophie knows just how much he misses his girls and their children. He knows he's lucky that they return at regular intervals to invade the house, sail his boats, and have parties in the sea garden. And here again, he knows that part of their readiness to travel from Geneva and Germany is due to the fact that Sophie is here to plan and organize, and make things comfortable and easy for them. They often bring friends and their children, and they continue to celebrate birthdays and Christmases together here on the Tamar. His throat constricts a little as he thinks of his sweet, loving Meg; how much she has missed, and how happy her pretty, clever daughters and their boisterous, fun-loving children would have made her. The tide is sweeping in, carrying them up the wide reaches of the river where the gulls abandon their feeding grounds and the tawny rustling marshes are threaded and crisscrossed with blue rivulets as the water pours into deep muddy channels. Sophie glances at her watch. 'We'll be in good time for lunch,' she says. 'Rowena will be pleased.' And a quick humorous glance goes between them, acknowledging the tyranny of the older generation. Johnnie's mother - Rowena, Lady T, the granny-monster, depending on who speaks - continues to live with him. Frail, dominant, ungrateful, she is still a presence to be reckoned with, but he loves her - as far as she allows any show of emotion - much as he has always done. The house, with its spare elegant lines, can be seen clearly now, set amongst lawns and shrubberies that slope to the sea garden and the river. The sea garden, created by one of Johnnie's ancestors, is built on the foundations of a quay. Its grassy spaces curl out into the river, bounded by lavender hedges and, on the seaward edge, by a stone balustrade. Guarding it, gazing downriver towards the sea, stands the imposing figurehead of Circe, taken from an old sailing ship. Between Circe and The Spaniards, the pub on the western bank of the Tamar in Cargreen, stretches an imaginary line. This is the finishing line for many a race during childhood days: Al and Mike in the Heron, he and Fred in The Sieve. Johnnie suddenly remembers that particularly glorious day when, for the first and last time, he and Fred crossed the line ahead of the Heron, and brief ly he is a boy again, laughing with Fred as they paddle The Sieve into the boathouse. In the end it was Al who gave The Sieve its name. Fred discovered the boat - an old National 12 lying neglected behind a shed in Cargreen - while he was helping in the garden to earn extra pocket money. Its owner had gone to war in 1942, never to return, and his widow was only too pleased to allow Fred to take the boat away for nothing. He consulted with Johnnie, who asked his father for permission to put the National 12 in their boathouse so that he and Fred could rebuild it. It was clear that his father was delighted with their initiative. He drove them round the head of the river to Cargreen, loaded the boat onto his trailer, brought it back and installed it in the boathouse. It took more than a year to restore her. The boys earned money where they could, saved their pennies, bought the timber and other things they needed, and spent all their spare time working on her. They loved their boat and as they worked on her they tried out names for her: nothing seemed quite right. 'Avocet?' 'Boring.' 'Queen of the Tamar?' 'Pretentious.' 'Al's Doom?' 'You must be kidding.' One afternoon at tea-time, after a few hours' work in the boathouse, Johnnie and Fred wandered up to the sea garden. Al was there with Mike, and Johnnie called out: 'She'll be ready to launch tomorrow. We'll be taking you on any time now.' His father strolled to meet them, carrying his teacup, smiling at the two younger boys. 'Good work,' he said approvingly. 'We'll do the job properly and Mother shall break a bottle of champagne against the bow in the approved manner.' Johnnie beamed at him, thrilled at the prospect of an official launch to honour the hard work he and Fred had put in. He knew that his father did not quite approve of the way that Al commandeered the Heron so that nobody else got a look-in, but this fellow feeling was unspoken between them, not to be acknowledged. Yet Johnnie was comforted by their complicity. 'And after the launch we'll do sea trials,' said Fred, unable to contain his excitement. 'Just to check her out.' 'Don't forget to have the coastguard on standby.' Al's voice was amused, not quite jeering. He lounged on the grass near his mother, confident of her approval, and she smiled at his remark. Mike leaned against the balustrade, grinning. 'A couple of Jumblies,' Al continued more contemptuously, encouraged by his mother's partisanship, 'going to sea in a sieve.' And the name stuck. 'We beat the old Sieve again today, Mother.' 'How many times now has The Sieve capsized, Freddy? Shouldn't it be in The Guinness Book of Records?' So Al and Mike teased and mocked the two younger boys and continue to win their races. This was usually because they were more focused, more determined - they were competitive even with each other - whilst Johnnie and Fred were content simply to enjoy themselves. And then, on that particularly magic afternoon, The Sieve beat the Heron; sailing inboard around the windward buoy, and on to cross that invisible line stretched between Circe and The Spaniards, ahead of Mike and Al. Johnnie cheered and saluted Circe as they skimmed past the sea garden, heading for the boathouse. They dropped the sails and paddled her in through the big doorway, joyfully reliving every moment of the race, comparing notes. They were too busy at first, furling the mainsail, to notice the grim faces of Al and Mike as they paddled the Heron into the boathouse behind them. Not for these two the gracefulness in defeat expected - even demanded - of Johnnie and Fred. Al snarled at Mike, who snapped back; they blamed each other, and so bitter were their recriminations that the pleasure of success was almost done away with; almost but not quite. Johnnie and Fred remained quietly exultant, tasting the first sweets of triumph, and it was then that Johnnie realized the friendship between Al and Mike was not of the same depth as the bond that existed between him and Fred. Perhaps it was then he ceased to env y his older brother. And now, remembering, Johnnie sees the foreshadowing of the dangerous quality of that deep rivalr y between Al and Mike, usually masked by their apparently close-knit friendship. Here the seeds were sown that f lowered so disastrously years later, when Mike won the beautiful Juliet, whom Al desired. Johnnie remembers the four of them - he and Fred, Al and Mike - sailing home from another race; the raised voices, the sudden gybe of the boat and then Mike's frantic voice: 'Man overboard!' and he and Fred scrambling from their bunks below. They searched all night but Al's body was never found. As he slows the engine and circles the buoy, Johnnie salutes Circe as he always does, and Sophie goes forward to pick up the mooring. They are home. Excerpted from The Sea Garden: A Novel by Marcia Willett All rights reserved by the original copyright owners. 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