Stay awake Stories

Dan Chaon

Book - 2012

"Before the critically acclaimed novels Await Your Reply and You Remind Me of Me, Dan Chaon made a name for himself as a renowned writer of dazzling short stories. Now, in Stay Awake, Chaon returns to that form for the first time since his masterly Among the Missing, a finalist for the National Book Award. In these haunting, suspenseful stories, lost, fragile, searching characters wander between ordinary life and a psychological shadowland. They have experienced intense love or loss, grief or loneliness, displacement or disconnection--and find themselves in unexpected, dire, and sometimes unfathomable situations. A father's life is upended by his son's night terrors--and disturbing memories of the first wife and child he ab...andoned; a foster child receives a call from the past and begins to remember his birth mother, whose actions were unthinkable; a divorced woman experiences her own dark version of "empty-nest syndrome"; a young widower is unnerved by the sudden, inexplicable appearances of messages and notes--on dollar bills, inside a magazine, stapled to the side of a tree; and a college dropout begins to suspect that there's something off, something sinister, in his late parents' house. Dan Chaon's stories feature scattered families, unfulfilled dreamers, anxious souls. They exist in a twilight realm--in a place by the window late at night when the streets are empty and the world appears to be quiet. But you are up, unable to sleep. So you stay awake"--

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New York : Ballantine Books 2012, ©2012.
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254 pages ; 22 cm
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  • The bees
  • Patrick Lane, flabbergasted
  • Stay awake
  • Long delayed, always expected
  • I wake up
  • To Psychic Underworld
  • St. Dismas
  • Thinking of you in your time of sorrow
  • Slowly we open our eyes
  • Shepherdess
  • Take this, Brother, may it serve you well
  • The Farm, the gold, the lily-white hands.
Review by New York Times Review

IN his somber, beautifully constructed 2009 novel, "Await Your Reply," Dan Chaon presented three interlocking narratives, each involving a form of identity theft. Midway through, in a strangely haunting scene, a man and a woman are wandering the ruins of a drowned town: Nebraska's own Atlantis, the man calls it. A reservoir that once flooded the place has dried up. Old buildings, now exposed, are washed out and ghostly, standing derelict amid silt and scrub grass. In both that novel and this new collection of stories, much of the world has that same quality of erosion and insubstantiality. Even the people seem hollowed out, teetering on the verge of collapse. A curious aspect of the stories in "Stay Awake" is the recurring use Chaon makes of a few distinctive motifs. A man loses a finger in a fall from a ladder. Someone glimpses through a window a figure not of this world. A parent commits suicide. Children are deformed, abducted, sent away to foster families, even murdered. Yet the echoes within these narrative elements aren't evidence of creative limitation. The sense, rather, is of a narrow cluster of related ideas being urgently worked out. These stories feel as though they had been written fast, one after another, expressing with some urgency a closely related set of variations on a given theme. What is that theme? The destructive fallout of the fractured family. Typically in "Stay Awake," a hapless man, alone and far from secure in his existential moorings, finds himself in crisis. A picture is rapidly drawn of a world out of true, or a mind out of true, in a situation rich in the possibility of weirdness and horror. The loss of a child, a spouse or a parent is often a factor. In "To Psychic Underworld," an electrician called Critter has recently lost his wife. He moves with his small daughter to live with his sister in Toledo, where he becomes alert to his surroundings in a new way: "It was as if he were a long-dormant radio that had begun to receive signals." Critter begins to discover unsettling messages. "The grass had been worn off and it looked for a moment as if someone had printed something there. IM ... WATCHIN ... YVV." He finds a heap of table napkins in a fast-food restaurant, on each of which someone has written in ballpoint pen: "Please." A number of the stories end, as this one does, in a fraught atmosphere that portends imminent disaster. But the outcome is deferred, pushed back beyond the story's final page. For Critter, as for other characters in "Stay Awake," insanity probably looms. But confirmation or closure is possible only in the reader's imagination. It's a delicate effect, and not easy to pull off. In "Patrick Lane, Flabbergasted," a man named Brandon lives in the house he grew up in, his parents having died two years earlier. The house itself inspires disturbing memories: the parents committed suicide in their bedroom. Brandon discovered not their bodies but his mother's note, taped to the front door, which told him on no account to go upstairs: "Just call the police." To this unsettling circumstance are added further instances of a broken world: electrical outages and changing weather patterns. Much more disturbing is the inexplicable writing that appears on Brandon's flesh. A story so freighted with signifiers of impending catastrophe requires at least the suggestion of an outcome commensurate with the expectations it has aroused. In this regard the story fails. Yet a majority succeed. In "I Wake Up" a boy is sent to a foster family after his mother goes to prison. He moves in with a couple who have lost their 16-year-old son and sleeps in the dead boy's bed. As he grows up, his grip on reality loosens. The psychic trauma he's been carrying since childhood comes eerily into view, and at last we catch sight of it. In "St. Dismas," a young man rescues his ex-girlfriend's child because the mother is a meth addict. He's doing the right thing, but he can't handle the responsibility. The ending, although bleak, is perfect in its cold and shocking cruelty. Similarly, when the father in "Thinking of You in Your Time of Sorrow" fails to attend his baby's funeral his life begins to disintegrate. A terrible possibility dawns on him and he sees the shape of the burden he will carry through life. In each of these stories a morbid outcome is predictable, and the familiar patterns recur: a wretched childhood, an inability to find a home in the world, a bereavement, a failure of responsibility. Yet despite these familiar elements, Chaon consistently achieves an electric jolt of originality. The best of his stories arouse a feeling of deep foreboding. Then, with the reader's realization of what's about to emerge from the shadows, comes a shock of recognition. This is the great guilty pleasure of good horror fiction; the sickening moment when the monstrosity at the heart of the story's darkness suggests itself to the eager imagination, while still withholding its true shape. "Stay Awake" is a superbly disquieting demonstration of that uneasy power. A parent commits suicide. Children are deformed, abducted, sent away, even murdered.

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Review by Booklist Review

Chaon's (Await Your Reply, 2009)newest enticing short story collection embraces unsettled moments in which lives shift and unfold. In To Psychic Underworld, Critter, a recently widowed husband left to raise his 1-year-old daughter, begins finding random handwritten notes on index cards, currency, inserts in magazines. As the notes appear more frequently, he is forced to come to terms with his wife's death as well as his place in the world. The haunting title story follows new parents Zach and Amy, whose daughter, Rosalie, is born with a parasitic twin. Tensions arise when Zach lands in the hospital after a near-fatal car accident and surgery to remove Rosalie's twin leads Zach into a cycle of doubts and what-ifs. Long Delayed, Always Expected finds 44-year-old January initiating a physical relationship with her brain-damaged ex-husband, Jeffrey, as a way to escape sullen thoughts about her life and the future. In The Bees, a son's sleep disorder becomes the catalyst for a father's reckoning of the past. Chaon's 12 tales deftly explore the reality and mystery of his characters' unmoored lives.--Strauss, Leah Copyright 2010 Booklist

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Review by Publisher's Weekly Review

With this arresting collection, Chaon again demonstrates his mastery of the short story. In the hypnotic "The Bees," a young boy screams in his sleep for no reason; he's suffered no known distress. He doesn't even seem to be having nightmares. The boy's father, greatly disturbed, soon finds his own dark past threatening to overwhelm his present. In the title story, Zach and Amber's baby girl is born with an incompletely formed conjoined twin. When Zach narrowly survives death before a highly risky operation to separate the twins, this already fragile family is strained to the breaking point. An electrician named Critter, living with his young daughter in Toledo, Ohio, after the death of his wife, keeps found notes despite their troubling nature, in "To Psychic Underworld:." Chaon's protagonists are plagued by common traumas and struggle to rectify their decisions with the external forces of fate. More often than not, characters are stuck in an eddy that seems inescapable, yet which is also a moment's isolation from the surrounding flow. Chaon (Await Your Reply) brings readers fantastically close, slowly drawing them into the anxiety or loneliness or remorse of his characters, and building great anticipation for the twists to come. Agent: Noah Lukeman, Lukeman Literary Management. (Feb. 7) (c) Copyright PWxyz, LLC. All rights reserved.

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Review by Library Journal Review

National Book Award finalist Chaon follows up his critically acclaimed novel Await Your Reply with this disquieting collection of 12 stories. His characters are everyday people experiencing extreme emotional situations that pull them into a strange, shadowy otherworld. In "The Bees," five-year-old Frankie suffers from nightmares, while father Zach has dreams that feel like bees buzzing in his head about an ex-wife and son he deserted years ago. In "Patrick Lane, Flabbergasted," Brandon Fowler lives alone in a family house where his parents killed themselves; one night, he senses the house creeping in on him. In "Slowly We Open Our Eyes," brothers Smokey and Donnie O'Sullivan are traveling cross-country to their grandmother's funeral when they swerve to miss a deer and have an accident that changes everything. In the title story, Zach and Amber's new baby, Rosalie, is born with two heads. Soon after his daughter's birth, Zach is paralyzed in an auto accident and begins obsessing about the parasitic head. VERDICT The powerful writing in this intense and suspenseful collection draws us into the emotional maelstroms experienced by the characters. A highly recommended work, not to be missed. [See Prepub Alert, 8/8/11.]-Donna Bettencourt, Mesa Cty. P.L., Grand Junction, CO (c) Copyright 2012. Library Journals LLC, a wholly owned subsidiary of Media Source, Inc. No redistribution permitted.

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The Bees Gene's son Frankie wakes up screaming. It has become frequent, two or three times a week, at random times: midnight-three a.m.-five in the morning. Here is a high, empty wail that severs Gene from his unconsciousness like sharp teeth. It is the worst sound that Gene can imagine, the sound of a young child dying violently-falling from a building, or caught in some machinery that is tearing an arm off, or being mauled by a predatory animal. No matter how many times he hears it he jolts up with such images playing in his mind, and he always runs, thumping into the child's bedroom to find Frankie sitting up in bed, his eyes closed, his mouth open in an oval like a Christmas caroler. If someone took a picture of him, he would appear to be in a kind of peaceful trance, as if he were waiting to receive a spoonful of ice cream, rather than emitting that horrific sound. "Frankie!" Gene will shout, and claps his hands hard in the child's face. The clapping works well. At this, the scream always stops abruptly, and Frankie opens his eyes, blinking at Gene with vague awareness before settling back down into his pillow, nuzzling a little before growing still. He is sound asleep, he is always sound asleep, though even after months Gene can't help leaning down and pressing his ear to the child's chest, to make sure he's still breathing, his heart is still going. It always is. There is no explanation that they can find. In the morning, Frankie doesn't remember anything, and on the few occasions that they have managed to wake him in the midst of one of his screaming attacks, he is merely sleepy and irritable. Once, Gene's wife, Karen, shook him and shook him, until finally he opened his eyes groggily. "Honey?" she said. "Honey? Did you have a bad dream?" But Frankie only moaned a little. "No," he said, puzzled and unhappy at being awakened, but nothing more. They can find no pattern to it. It can happen any day of the week, any time of the night. It doesn't seem to be associated with diet, or with his activities during the day, and it doesn't stem, as far as they can tell, from any sort of psychological unease. During the day, he seems perfectly normal and happy. They have taken him several times to the pediatrician, but the doctor seems to have little of use to say. There is nothing wrong with the child physically, Dr. Banerjee says. She advises that such things were not uncommon for children of Frankie's age group-he is five-and that more often than not, the disturbance simply passes away. "He hasn't experienced any kind of emotional trauma, has he?" the doctor says. "Nothing out of the ordinary at home?" "No, no," they both murmur, together. They shake their heads, and Dr. Banerjee shrugs. "Parents," she says. "It's probably nothing to worry about." She gives them a brief smile. "As difficult as it is, I'd say that you may just have to weather this out." But the doctor has never heard those screams. In the mornings after the "nightmares," as Karen calls them, Gene feels unnerved, edgy. He works as a driver for the United Parcel Service, and as he moves through the day after a screaming attack, there is a barely perceptible hum at the edge of his hearing, an intent, deliberate static sliding along behind him as he wanders through streets and streets in his van. He stops along the side of the road and listens. The shadows of summer leaves tremble murmurously against the windshield, and cars are accelerating on a nearby road. In the treetops, a cicada makes its trembly, pressure-cooker hiss. Something bad has been looking for him for a long time, he thinks, and now, at last, it is growing near. When he comes home at night everything is normal. They live in an old house in the suburbs of Cleveland, and sometimes after dinner they work together in the small patch of garden out in back of the house- tomatoes, zucchini, string beans, cucumbers-while Frankie plays with Legos in the dirt. Or they take walks around the neighborhood, Frankie riding his bike in front of them, his training wheels squeaking. They gather on the couch and watch cartoons together, or play board games, or draw pictures with crayons. After Frankie is asleep, Karen will sit at the kitchen table and study-she is in nursing school-and Gene will sit outside on the porch, flipping through a newsmagazine or a novel, smoking the cigarettes that he has promised Karen he will give up when he turns thirty-five. He is thirty-four now, and Karen is twenty- seven, and he is aware, more and more frequently, that this is not the life that he deserves. He has been incredibly lucky, he thinks. Blessed, as Gene's favorite cashier at the supermarket always says. "Have a blessed day," she says, when Gene pays the money and she hands him his receipt, and he feels as if she has sprinkled him with her ordinary, gentle beatitude. It reminds him of long ago, when an old nurse had held his hand in the hospital and said that she was praying for him. Sitting out in his lawn chair, drawing smoke out of his cigarette, he thinks about that nurse, even though he doesn't want to. He thinks of the way she'd leaned over him and brushed his hair as he stared at her, imprisoned in a full body cast, sweating his way through withdrawal and DTs. He had been a different person, back then. A drunk, a monster. At eighteen, he married the girl he'd gotten pregnant, and then had set about slowly, steadily, ruining all their lives. When he'd abandoned them, his wife and son, back in Nebraska, he had been twenty-four, a danger to himself and others. He'd done them a favor by leaving, he thought, though he still feels guilty when he looks back on it. Years later, when he was sober, he even tried to contact them. He wanted to own up to his behavior, to pay the back child support, to apologize. But they were nowhere to be found. Mandy was no longer living in the small Nebraska town where they'd met and married, and there was no forwarding address. Her parents were dead. No one seemed to know where she'd gone. Karen didn't know the full story. She had been, to his relief, uncurious about his previous life, though she knew he had some drinking days, some bad times. She knew that he'd been married before, too, though she didn't know the extent of it, didn't know that he had another son, for example, didn't know that he had left them one night, without even packing a bag, just driving off in the car, a flask tucked between his legs, driving east as far as he could go. She didn't know about the car crash, the wreck he should have died in. She didn't know what a bad person he'd been. She was a nice lady, Karen. Maybe a little sheltered. And truth to tell, he was ashamed-and even scared-to imagine how she would react to the truth about his past. He didn't know if she would have ever really trusted him if she'd known the full story, and the longer they have known each other the less inclined he has been to reveal it. He'd escaped his old self, he thought, and when Karen got pregnant, shortly before they were married, he told himself that now he had a chance to do things over, to do it better. They had bought the house together, he and Karen, and now Frankie will be in kindergarten in the fall. He has come full circle, has come exactly to the point when his former life with Mandy and his son, DJ, completely fell apart. He looks up as Karen comes to the back door and speaks to him through the screen. "I think it's time for bed, sweetheart," she says, and he shudders off these thoughts, these memories. He smiles. He's been in a strange frame of mind lately. The months of regular awakenings have been getting to him, and he has a hard time going back to sleep after an episode with Frankie. When Karen wakes him in the morning, he often feels muffled, sluggish-as if he's hungover. He doesn't hear the alarm clock. When he stumbles out of bed, he finds he has a hard time keeping his moodiness in check. He can feel his temper coiling up inside him. He isn't that type of person anymore, and hasn't been for a long while. Still, he can't help but worry. They say that there is a second stretch of craving, which sets in after several years of smooth sailing; five or seven years will pass, and then it will come back without warning. He has been thinking of going to AA meetings again, though he hasn't in some time-not since he met Karen. It's not as if he gets trembly every time he passes a liquor store, or even as if he has a problem when he goes out with buddies and spends the evening drinking soda and nonalchoholic beer. No. The trouble comes at night, when he's asleep. He has begun to dream of his first son. DJ. Perhaps it is related to his worries about Frankie, but for several nights in a row the image of DJ-age about five-has appeared to him. In the dream, Gene is drunk, and playing hide-and-seek with DJ in the yard behind the Cleveland house where he is now living. There is the thick weeping willow out there, and Gene watches the child appear from behind it and run across the grass, happy, unafraid, the way Frankie would. DJ turns to look over his shoulder and laughs, and Gene stumbles after him, at least a six-pack's worth of good mood, a goofy, drunken dad. It's so real that when he wakes, he still feels intoxicated. It takes him a few minutes to shake it. One morning after a particularly vivid version of this dream, Frankie wakes and complains of a funny feeling-"right here"-he says, and points to his forehead. It isn't a headache, he says. "It's like bees!" he says. "Buzzing bees!" He rubs his hand against his brow. "Inside my head." He considers for a moment. "You know how the bees bump against the window when they get in the house and want to get out?" This description pleases him, and he taps his forehead lightly with his fingers, humming, "Zzzzzzz," to demonstrate. "Does it hurt?" Karen says. "No," Frankie says. "It tickles." Karen gives Gene a concerned look. She makes Frankie lie down on the couch, and tells him to close his eyes for a while. After a few minutes, he raises up, smiling, and says that the feeling has gone. "Honey, are you sure?" Karen says. She pushes her hair back and slides her palm across his forehead. "He's not hot," she says, and Frankie sits up impatiently, suddenly more interested in something that is happening on the Fuzzy Fieldmouse show, which is playing on the TV in the living room. Karen gets out one of her nursing books, and Gene watches her face tighten with concern as she flips slowly through the pages. She is looking at Chapter 3: Neurological System, and Gene observes as she pauses here and there, skimming down a list of symptoms. "We should probably take him back to Dr. Banerjee again," she says. Gene nods, recalling what the doctor said about "emotional trauma." "Are you scared of bees?" he asks Frankie. "Is that something that's bothering you?" "No," Frankie says. "Not really." When Frankie was three, a bee stung him above his left eyebrow. They had been out hiking together, and they hadn't yet learned that Frankie was "moderately allergic" to bee stings. Within minutes of the sting, Frankie's face had begun to distort, to puff up, his eye welling shut. He looked deformed. Gene didn't know if he'd ever been more frightened in his entire life, running down the trail with Frankie's head pressed against his heart, trying to get to the car and drive him to the doctor, terrified that the child was dying. Frankie himself was calm. Gene clears his throat. He knows the feeling that Frankie is talking about-he has felt it himself, that odd, feathery vibration inside his head. And in fact he feels it again, now. He presses the pads of his fingertips against his brow. Emotional trauma, his mind murmurs, but he is thinking of DJ, not Frankie. "What are you scared of?" Gene asks Frankie, after a moment. "Anything?" "You know what the scariest thing is?" Frankie says, and widens his eyes, miming a frightened look. "There's a lady with no head, and she went walking through the woods, looking for it. 'Give . . . me . . . back . . . my . . . head . . .' " "Where on earth did you hear a story like that!" Karen says. "Daddy told me," Frankie says. "When we were camping." Gene blushes, even before Karen gives him a sharp look. "Oh, great," she says. "Wonderful." He doesn't meet her eyes. "We were just telling ghost stories," he says, softly. "I thought he would think the story was funny." "My God, Gene," she says. "With him having nightmares like this? What were you thinking?" It's a bad flashback, the kind of thing he's usually able to avoid. He thinks abruptly of Mandy, his former wife. He sees in Karen's face that look Mandy would give him when he screwed up. "What are you, some kind of idiot?" Mandy used to say. "Are you crazy?" Back then, Gene couldn't do anything right, it seemed, and when Mandy yelled at him it made his stomach clench with shame and inarticulate rage. I was trying, he would think, I was trying, damn it, and it was as if no matter what he did, it wouldn't turn out right. That feeling would sit heavily in his chest, and eventually, when things got worse, he hit her once. "Why do you want me to feel like shit," he said through clenched teeth. "I'm not an asshole," he said, and when she rolled her eyes at him he slapped her hard enough to knock her out of her chair. That was the time he'd taken DJ to the carnival. It was a Saturday, and he'd been drinking a little, so Mandy didn't like it, but after all-he thought-DJ was his son, too, he had a right to spend some time with his own son, Mandy wasn't his boss even if she might think she was. She liked to make him hate himself. What she was mad about was that he'd taken DJ on the Velocerator. It was a mistake, he'd realized afterward. But DJ himself had begged to go on. He was just recently four years old, and Gene had just turned twenty-three, which made him feel inexplicably old. He wanted to have a little fun. Besides, nobody told him he couldn't take DJ on the thing. When he led DJ through the gate, the ticket taker even smiled, as if to say, "Here is a young guy showing his kid a good time." Gene winked at DJ and grinned, taking a nip from a flask of peppermint schnapps. He felt like a good dad. He wished his own father had taken him on rides at the carnival! The door to the Velocerator opened like a hatch in a big silver flying saucer. Disco music was blaring from the entrance and became louder as they went inside. It was a circular room with soft, padded walls, and one of the workers had Gene and DJ stand with their backs to the wall, strapping them in side by side. Gene felt warm and expansive from the schnapps. He took DJ's hand, and he almost felt as if he were glowing with love. "Get ready, kiddo," Gene whispered. "This is going to be wild." Excerpted from Stay Awake: Stories by Dan Chaon All rights reserved by the original copyright owners. Excerpts are provided for display purposes only and may not be reproduced, reprinted or distributed without the written permission of the publisher.